Afraid

48.

Song of this chapter : video games - Lana del Rey

Alex's Pov

i was the happiest girl in the world. I was finally starting a new life. I finally finished high school. I had accomplished so much over all these years. I learned, lost, and loved. it was graduation day.

sammy smiled at me. "Thank God, the ceremony was long enough." As I walked out the building. She was standing with my parents and the Boys.

i laughed holding my cap as Harry walked over to me, "Look at you, smarty pants. graduated a month early." he wrapped his arms around me. i held on closely, I wasn't ready to let him go, "trust me it wasn't easy."

he pulled away, "You are going to kick New York's Ass."

louis smiled, "You did it. im so happy for you." his accent sound adorable when he was cheerful.

"is Liam here?" i asked, and he nod, "The whole gang is here. including Z."

i took a deep breath, "Oh.." I hadn't seen Zayn since last week.

i seen Niall fixing his suit, "Burgundy is definitely your color. Congratulations Alex." he quickly hugged me, as Liam approached.

his smile was devine. He kissed my temple, "It feels like i just met you yesterday. a lost little girl."

i laughed, holding his hand. "in fact i was honoring that day because it was the worst." Liam and I had grew extremely close after I left Zayn's house. I had told Liam a huge secret, and in a way being with him made me feel happy. I hadn't felt happy in long time perhaps before I started dating Zayn.

liam laughed, "I disagree. you were the talk of the locker room."

i pulled my hand away, hitting him, "gross. besides you act like i will not return for your graduation."

liam pulled me in for a hug, "i was hoping you'd be my prom date?"

i rolled my eyes, "As if."

sammy pulled my hair, clearing her throat. "Hey Zayn."

liam pulled away from me quickly, trying to play it off. i looked up, and Zayn stood broad. he was wearing his suit for the christmas party we had went to. his hair was pushed back, and his stubble was growing. he hadnt shave since last week.

He held his arm out, "congratulations Alex." i hug him, inhaling his cologne. "thank You. i always had your support." i whispered.

Zayn pulled away first, "well, i am sure you'll be great in New York."

he was lying. He couldn't look at me.

my mom came from behind me, "hello Zayn." she was smiling.

"Hi Mrs. Peters." zayn mumbled.

i rolled my eyes, zayn was making this extrememly awkward. My father shook Zayn's hand. My mother eyed me up and down disappointed.

sammy and the boys came from behind us, "Mind taking our picture?" harry asked holding his phone.

sammy smiled, "of course."

harry, louis, and Niall stood on my side. i was in the center, with Zayn on my side, and Liam. Zayns hands rested on my back, sending shivers down my spine.

i smiled as sammy took the picture, but Zayn didnt remove his hand. it had occur to me that this was much harder for him than it was me.

i looked at him, and he lazily smiled at me. i touched his cheek, "I'll always love you." It was true, I would always love him. Zayn had become such an important person to me. He was my first true love. I gave everything to him. My eyes became watery, I looked up so I would cry.