Afraid

6.

Zayn's POV

The next morning I woke up shivering, little rain drops could be heard outside. I wrapped myself up in my blanket, and tossed and turned till I as warm enough. It was no use, I was cold and I had to wee. "Fuck man." I uncovered myself and sat up and stretched, then looked at my phone its 5:42. I have a text message from Jackie

Text message from whore:

- Too bad you didn't show up, but no worries Stan come over.

I roll my eyes, and stand up and walk towards the bathroom. After I finish taking a wee, I wash my hands and brush my teeth then walk over to my bed. For it being a Tuesday I really wish, it didn't have to rain today. It's the beginning of October; doesn't it usually start raining till December around Christmas? I hear my dad getting up, and I try to shut my eyes to go back to sleep, but I can't. My body is weird, if I wake up then go for a wee, I can't go back to bed so I decide to get up, and throw some basketball shorts on, and go downstairs to the kitchen and start breakfast.

My grandmother taught me after my mom left us, and my dad had to go to work so he dropped me off at her house since nobody at home can watch me. After I finish making breakfast I head upstairs to my room to grab my phone, then to my dad's room.

I knock on the door. "Come in" he says from behind the door. I walk in, and he is tying his shoes.

He looks up at me then at the clock, then back at me "Oh 6:20, new record buddy." He smiles and I shake my head "I made eggs, bacon, and biscuits."

He looks at me shocked "Thanks son. Did I wake you up?"

I shake my head "No I heard the rain and my room was cold, Sleep well?" he stands up and pats my back as a "yes" before walking past me to the staircase, then I follow him. We walk in the kitchen and I make him a glass of orange juice, and then sit down at the table with him.

We start eating "What did you do last night Zayn?" my father asks

I drink my orange juice then place it back on the table "Just went out with Harry, and his friend Alex."

"Alex? Stay away from trouble Zayn, you know keep your circle small." I laugh, my dad thinks Alex is a boy.

He looks at me puzzled "What's funny Zayn? I am serious." his voice sounds like a mixture of seriousness and anger. He just scowls at me and I shake my head with a smirk planted across my face.

"Sorry dad I didn't mean to laugh, but it is just that Alex happens to be a girl that just moved in next door to Harry." I say and my dad looks embarrassed for giving me a lecture

He looks at me "And does this Alex, happen to catch your eyes, son?"

I almost choke on my food, I start coughing, and my dad raises his eyebrow. I grab my drink and I take a sip, and I clear my throat. "Yeah, thanks dad. You just sat there and I almost died."

He sits up straight and takes a sip of his drink and puts it down and I just look at him "You didn't answer my question, Zayn." He says.

I ignore him, and start to play with my food on the plate "Why does it matter dad, it's not like I have a chance anyway." I feel bad for speaking to my dad like that but its early in the morning and I already went over this with Harry last night.

He looks at me "Why do you doubt yourself, son?" he looks sadly and his voice sounds weak.

I had enough of this, and I no longer want to speak about it. "Just drop it Dad!" I snap at him and head upstairs to get ready for school.

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I arrived at school right on time, I walked upstairs then I enter 1st period, I see Alex sitting next to Ryan. She is laughing, and he adores her. I look down and walk to the back of the class and take my seat. Mr. Carter walks in and everybody goes to their assigned seats. I glance up and I see Alex, walking towards our desk. She is still laughing and looking back at Ryan and shaking her head. She sits down next to me and smiles. I feel my heart race faster, and I play it off by giving her a smirk.