Afraid

36.

Things are about to get interesting. I was suppose to update on Sunday, but I had no service, then on Monday I was busy. Anyways Happy Late Easter, hope you guys had a good day. I'll keep this short, Umm thank you for you support, and kind comments. You'll probably hate me after this update but Zayn's past is slowly going to be revealed through out the next chapters. And alex is going to question everything. Okay I'm done.

Oops smut included.

Songs for this chapter:

You're the one I want - Lo-Fang
Losing you - Vanic x Aquilo
I'm so sorry - Imagine Dragons (this was suppose to make the ending so edgy & anger boiling)

Alex's POV

I sat there bothered as Zayn had his arm around my shoulder talking with the boys. I felt out of place, harry would steal glances at me. I just smiled, I wanted to leave, and sit with Ryan. Zayn must have sensed I wasn't okay, because he kissed my temple, "What's wrong?"

I looked at Louis, Liam, Niall, than at Harry; who nodded slowly. I looked at Zayn, "Nothing, just still feeling sick." I scooted my chair away removing his arm, Niall frowned, "Alex, they are serving pizza, want me to fetch you one?"

Guilt washed over me, I was failing badly at playing it low. I was losing my chill, I shook my head, "I am fine." Niall nodded continuing to talk with the boys.

My phone vibrated, I grabbed it, I could feel Zayn's eyes on me. I opened the messaged from Ryan:

Ryan - you look gutted, come sit with me. Candice isn't here. And I'm bored.

I flicker my eyes to harry, he takes his phone out, fumbling his fingers against his screen. My phone vibrates once again.

Harry - Zayn knows something is up, he threaten me earlier, telling me that you ignored him. I told you to play it low.

I sigh looking back at Ryan, he waves to me. I turn around looking at Harry. I stand up, casuing the boys to stop talking. I put my phone in my pocket, "I am leaving. Harry, are you still giving me a ride home after work?" I lie

Zayn's gaze burns into me, making me feel small, and in danger. Harry nods, I take a step when Zayn stands up, lightly touching my arm, "Hey, are you okay?" he whispers, I freeze.

Shocks pulse through my body, "Never better. I have to go. I love you." I pull my arm away, and walk towards Ryan's table. I let out a breath that I didn't notice I was holding in. I felt suffocated sitting with him.

I turn around, and Zayn is still watching me. I slowly sit down not breaking eye contact with him. Ryan calls my name causing me to look away. This is wrong, this whole thing is wrong.

Ryan grabs my hand, "What's wrong?" his voice calms me down, comfort consumes me.

"Nothing, he is just acting weird lately. Have you seen him talk to Jackie by any chance?" I ask looking back at Zayn. he is gone, but Louis stares at me shaking his head disapprovingly.

"No, but he was talking to Candice yesterday in the hall. She was talking to him, and he looked really upset. Why is everything fine?" I shake my head, but he knows that I am not, "You could tell me Alex."

The school bell rings, I frown standing up, "Candice thinks he is cheating on me, with Jackie." I say looking around for Zayn.

Ryan chuckles, "Alex I don't mean to burst your bubble, but he is bad. I don't know him personally, but Zayn Malik doesn't do relationships." I walk away, but he runs to me turning me around to face him "I am sorry Alex, maybe this is a mis-understanding, he seems crazy for you."