Afraid

41.

I hate this chapter with my entire life. I'm so sorry, I'm just busy, I have finals, and I'm so stressed out. Short filler

-unedited-

Alex's POV

I wake up feeling a bit sore in my lower stomach. I groan as I shift closer to zayn. He yawns, "Are you okay?" His voice a bit raspy and sharp.

I nod looking up at him, as I touch his waist, "Yeah just a bit sore." I feel the outline of his v-line.

His eyes are still closed, "Oh, do need a heating pad or medicine to reduce the pain?"

I chuckle since when has he became an expert? then realize he is a master at sex, I frown, "Umm no. I just need my clothes." Imagines of last night replay in my head only this time, it's him with other girls, preferably Zoe.

His eyes opens, as I scoot away, "Alex. Don't do that."

I sigh, sitting up covering my bare chest, "do what?" I try to sound clueless.

I should have known better, that Zayn would figure it out. After all he does know me best, "Feel insecure about yourself. You are bothered by something. Tell me, we agreed to move past everything yesterday."

I look down, scooting back under the blankets to lay next to him. He wraps his arm arm me as I look in him in the eyes, "You. I just felt stupid about something I thought about. But it doesn't matter now, I'm here with you."

He smiles weakly, "I am here with you. Listen, last night was beyond amazing. And I love you more than you know."

My cheeks flush, and I gently squeeze my leg between his, tangling our legs, "I know. I love you too. It was unexplainable in a good way. Can I ask you something?"

"Anything."

"Am I a bad person, for just leaving like that?"

He sighs deeply, his nostrils flare, "No, you just lost your way. But it's okay, everyone at some point in their life looses their way."

I feel reassured. Then I realized I missed Valentines's day, I missed our anniversary. I missed out on a lot. "I'm sorry, Zayn."

"Don't apologize, shit happens Alex. It's not always our fault, we lose control of what's happening, it's life. Some days we are okay, others were not."

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Zayn's POV

I Turned the engine off, as I pulled up in front of her house. She tapped her foot rapidly, biting her fingernails, "I can't do this. Can't you just tell them, I ran off again?" Her voice is uneasy, the lump and sadness makes her sound so scared.

My fingers gently grab her chin, turning her to look at me, "You'll be alright. I'm right here, and I got you." Her smile is the weakest that I have ever seen. But she made an effort to at least try to smile.

She sighs opening the door, as I walk out, and rush to her side. I kiss her temple as a door is opened. I look, it's her mum and dad running towards her. Alex walks towards them, as her dad pulls her in for a tight hug, crying lightly, thanking God. Lana watches them filled with joy, she looks at me "Thank you Zayn." She mouthes, I nod, as I let them hug Alex and have a family moment.

For some reason I should feel happy that I brought her home, but I'm not, I know that there will be more complications, and fights along the way. I know what Candice has stored, and it's not pleasing. I think to myself, did I go get alex to bring her home, or did I go get her to have a great fuck like Candice said?