There's Always Tomorrow

Chapter 4

                                                                                (Charlie's POV) 

         Things between Hugo and I have been terrible when it comes to things the past couple of days. I really want to tell him how I feel about him. I really am worried about how he will respond to finding that out. He has been so sketchy lately. I know that he's hiding something from me. Whatever it is I hope it's worth it. Hugo and I have been best mates for years. We have always had each other's backs. We are each other's person no matter what happens. Whether or not we are admitting our feelings is a huge deal. I know I should tell him about my feelings. It is starting to eat me up inside. 

   "What's wrong? Something is really bothering you. I can tell." Hugo asks me what's on my mind. 

   "Something has been eating me up inside. I need to tell you what it is. I don't want you to freak out when I do." I state. 

    "What do you need to tell me? I won't freak out." He assures me. 

   I take a deep breath. "I have feelings for you. Romantic feelings. I have pushed them down so much. I really am just nervous about it." I say. 

   "I feel the same way about you. I do have romantic feelings for you. I've tried to push them away but I couldn't. It was not how I wanted to feel for a while. I really am scared about our friendship." He says back to me. 

   "Us having feelings for each other is a scary thought. I can't handle losing you as my best mate. You are here for me through all my ups and downs. I am worried that this will ruin our friendship." I explain to him. I can't leave my thoughts to myself anymore. It is important for us to talk them through with him. Hugo is who I'm supposed to be with. 

  "Our friendship does mean the world to me. We have come a long way as mates. I do think that it will strengthen our romantic relationship. I want to be your partner and best mate. For me it isn't that complicated what I want." He explains to me. 

   "What do you want?" I ask. I want him to be my boyfriend. I want us to be on the same page though. I don't know where is head is at. 

   "I want to be your boyfriend. I have waited years to finally tell you that I have these feelings. It's deep rooted ones. I honestly can't see my life without you in it. You are the only one that I want." He tells me. He really is a special person that I want in my life. 

   "I feel the exact same way. I can feel it in my heart that you are my person. I want us to be together in that way. We need to talk it out before just jumping in." I agree with how this is going. We need to be rational about it. I don't want to lose him as my best mate if our romantic relationship doesn't pan out. I know that we're making a huge decision right now during this conversation. It's important for us to think things through. A lot is running through my head right now. The two of us getting into a romantic relationship could be tricky. Our friendship is already really strong. That can be a major upside if we do. It can also be a downside for us as well. We know each other insanely well. Better than we know ourselves. Dating may not be the best ideas. I think it's worth the risk though.