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55. EN- Sunno - Always sunshine & smiles

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❦ genre: kim sunoo x reader, slight angst?, fluff, comfort❦ warnings: sad sunoo but reader comforts him

You woke up to the sound of someone knocking on your door at 5 in the morning and you were just not in the mood to deal with whoever it was that just woke you up from your sleep. You were ready to yell at whoever it was, tell them off, and shout that nothing was worth being disturbed this early for, at least you were until you saw Kim Sunoo standing in front of you. Kim Sunoo with red eyes and tears streaming down his face. It was at this moment that you were ready to kill whoever made hurt him. He cleared his throat slightly.

"Can I come in?" he asked as he quickly wiped away his tears and let out a smile. This smile... it wasn't like Sunoo's usual carefree and bright one.

"Are you ok?" you asked despite seeing that he clearly wasn't. As he came in he held your hand, but his hand felt a little colder than usual.

"I'm just tired," he said softly.

"Let's get some sleep?" you offered, though more as a question because you weren't sure what to do right now. He nodded and the two of you settled in your bed with Sunoo's head resting on your chest. You played with the ends of his hair, massaging his scalp in silence. It didn't take long before the tears he tried to hold back were now making themselves apparent. It hurt you so much to see the love of your life crying like this but all you could do was be here. After what felt like an eternity,

"I'm so tired, y/n," he said just barely above a whisper. "I'm so tired" was a phrase you heard so often, saying it so many times throughout your lifetime. But Sunoo's tone was something else entirely. Looking at him, the eyes you saw a galaxy in was now a black hole.

"Sunoo, what's wrong?"

"It all just feels like so much pressure... I should be thankful, I know that I should and I am. But everywhere I look, I've seen comments from people saying that I'm fake or that everything I do is a lie. It's just stupid hate comments and I know that I shouldn't let it get to me but why am I like this? Other people say that I'm the reason they wake up and I know, I know that I shouldn't take it so literally but how am I supposed to be millions of people's reason for life when I can barely handle my own? When did becoming an idol feel so lonely?" Looking into Sunoo's eyes for any hint that he was joking, he wasn't but you wished he was. The two of you had been together throughout everything, his trainee days, his surgery, his debut, and during those times no matter how hard it was he was always sunshine and smiles but after all, the people who smiled the brightest had the most pain.

"You don't always have to be so happy all the time, not when you're with me, baby," you said softly. He hugged you closer if that was even possible, now resting his head in the crook of your neck,

"How did I ever get lucky enough to have you as my sunshine?" he muttered.

"I love you Kim Sunoo, I always will."

"I love you too, y/n," he said before closing his eyes and drifting to sleep in your eyes.