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52. X1′s Hyung Line - I'm Here For You

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Request:

might be a weird timing to request this but, i wanna request a angst/fluff for hyung line where they get stress because of situation happening now and you (as their best friend) are here to cheer them up?

↬ Pairing: Hyung Line x One Its.

↬ Genre: Angst, Fluff.

↬ Warnings: mental health stuff?

↬ Word Count: 2.5k

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As soon as you saw the message on the group chat, you made a mental note to be there. It was going to be a stressful day for them, you were sure of it, but at the same time you wanted to give them their own space. After all, the discussion was about the group itself and you were just their best friend but not a member. A day had passed since the news came out and it was hard to get into the building without being noticed, but the staff helped you out and finally you were in the dorms, after all they knew that all of them needed support right now.

Your heartbeat was starting to hurt your chest, the anxiety filling you as the managers told you how each of them were dealing with it. It was impossible to not get mixed feelings, something between sadness and anger invading you.

It might have been the first time you felt such coldness in the dorm: all of them were scattered around the building, mostly locked in their rooms. You decided to go to Seungwoo first, knowing he might be beating himself up for the whole situation. And you weren't wrong: he was on his bed, surrounded by complete darkness except for the few candles that dimly lit the room and the light of his cellphone as he stared into the screen intently. When you got closer he suddenly looked up, giving you a sad smile before scooting a little bit to a side so that you would sit down next to him.

The heavy eye bags under his eyes showed how tired he was, probably lacking sleep, and his bottom lip was hurt from him biting on it while fidgeting with his phone. You looked over his shoulder and saw the comments, all negative ones after another, blaming him. With a slow sigh, you covered the phone screen and put it aside, Seungwoo's eyes shutting close as he let you, hugging his knees to his chest and hiding his face. There wasn't much to say as you rubbed soft caresses onto his back, feeling the sobs he let out, giving him time until he was ready to speak.

"I didn't know... I thought... I was so scared... I wanted to escape and so I went out and I just..." Each word was interrupted by his voice breaking. "They are right, I was so selfish... Everyone was feeling the same way yet I turned my back on them and now I can't even look them in the eye."

"It's not your fault." He sobbed even harder, shaking his head. "It isn't. You are the leader, yes, but you can't see the future and there are things that are out of your control. Everyone is hurting and they are trying to point fingers at whatever they can, but you are not to blame."

"I know but I can't... I can't stop feeling like I should have done more, insisted more. I called the agency and told them we all wanted to take part in the meeting but they ended up dismissing us... I should have gone there anyway, the rest all trusted in me and I let them down." Unlike his usual attitude, the words started spilling one after another, his tears drying as he felt a wave of frustration wash over.

"You did all you could, just like the rest of them. The members don't blame you, and neither do your true fans, don't read the comments that are filled with haters and people with too much pain to think objectively." Your fingers softly typed on the screen, looking for the positive comments. "See? Look how many people love you for who you are and how many of them understand you. Read these ones, gain strength from their love and join your members, don't isolate yourself just to beat yourself down. You can walk slowly when the pressure is too much to handle."