Deadly love | Chacha

Crazy

                     ~Chapter 15~
Crazy

Charlis POV:
The past week has been a bit chaotic for me. I know I shouldn't have been off my meds but I really didn't think it would make a difference. But it did. And I did some stuff that I'm not proud of.

But I'm back on my medication and I'm okay now. I'm in the right mindset and I still want Chase. Let me rephrase that, I need Chase.

I feel absolutely horrible and every minute of the day I'm terrified that Delilah will find out we kissed.

But at the same time I can't help but want Chase for myself. My life might be coming to an end soon and I don't want to waste the last of it without Chase.

I don't care if he's in love with Delilah. I don't care that they are getting married. I will be his affair. I just want him.
Not forever. Just for now.

Chase: "this is wrong on so many levels."

It is. It's so wrong. Im betraying everyone I love. Everyone who's been here with me since day 1.

Charli: "I don't care. Let me be your side chick. Let me be your affair. I just want to kiss you"

He laughed then shook his head

Chase: "first of all, no. Second of all, you deserve better then that. You deserve someone who can be your boyfriend. Someone who isn't getting married to your sister. Like Ivan, he loves you. Be with him"

I shook my head and kissed him again

Charli: "he isn't you"

He didn't stop me for a second then he gently pushed me off him

Chase: "I'm sorry charli! But I'm In love with your sister! We can't happen."

I know we can't. I know. But I need it to.

Chase: "maybe things could be different... they would have been different..."

What does he mean by that?

Chase: "If I had stayed things would have been different"

Stayed? Where?

Charli: "what do you mean"

What is he talking about?

Chase: "I remember."

Oh.

Charli: "you do?"

He nodded

Chase: "I'm so sorry, Charli. I was an idiot."

That's all he has to say? He was an idiot? Damn right he was an idiot.

Charli: "so I was right then, everything you told me that night was a lie."

He quickly shook his head

Chase: "it wasn't a lie. I wanted to be with you."

Then why did he leave.

Chase: "I just... I was scared to be in a relationship. I was a dumb kid who just wanted to sleep around with girls."

The damage is already done. We can't go back now.

Chase: "if it makes you feel better, I didn't sleep with another girl for months after that. I tried to. But I just couldn't."

Then why didn't he come back to me

Charli: "so none of it was a lie? Everything you said was true?"

I wonder if he still thinks I'm the most gorgeous girl he's ever seen...