Deadly love | Chacha

Love ≠ Happy

~Chapter 57~
                     Love ≠ Happy

Time reverse ⏩
5 days earlier

Chases POV:
I think we can figure this out. We will be just fine. There's nothing really to complain about right? No. There isn't. I have a perfect life. Moneys going good, we're having a baby, we live in this great apartment in San Diego. Our life is great. Why complain.

I comforted her while she cried into my arms.

I understand why she feels the way she does. She thinks I'm gonna leave her because everyone else did.

I'm all she's got.

Chase: "if it makes you feel any better, you're not alone. It goes the same for me. You're all I have"

She shook her head

Charli: "that isn't true"
She sniffled

Um, yes it it? Who else do I have.

Chase: "yes it is. You're the only perso-"
Charli: "No! No im not. You have parents and you have siblings and even though you don't like them, they love you! You're whole life you've been surrounded by love so please don't pretend like we're in the same situation here"

Okay... I was just trying to help.

Chase: "I know we aren't in the same situation. Im sorry. You're right."

But she's not getting the point. She keeps doing this hypothetical thing where I leave her and she has no one. But she doesn't have no one. She has me.

Chase: "but that doesn't matter right? Things are better now. You are surrounded by love. I love you. And I'm not leaving."
Charli: "sometimes that isn't really a choice is it."

Huh

Charli: "people get sick and die! And you don't realize it could happen to you until you're sick and dying."

She thinks I'm gonna die now?

Chase: "I'm not gonna die."
Charli: "we don't know that?? Do we?? I didn't think I was gonna die either and then there came cancer out of no where. So we never know for you"

Way to make me feel good.

Chase: "I had a tumor already. I don't think the universe is that evil"
Charli: "what if it comes back?"

Can she stop? I already worry about that too much.

Chase: "it won't! It won't. Could we stop talking about how I'm gonna die? I'm not gonna die. You're not gonna die. we are gonna be fine."

we already had our life threatening diseases. Life can't be that unfair for us to have more of that. I refuse to believe that. It would be so unfair. How can some people go through life without any health problems and the others get such bad luck they get it twice?

Charli: "fine."
Chase: "Im not leaving and I'm not dying. Is that all we have to clear up?"

She nodded

Chase: "good"
Charli: "look, im sorry for all of this. I'm just parinoid."

I understand.

Charli: "it's a terrible world. And that's part of the reason I never wanted to bring a kid into it. The planet is only getting worse, right? Plus, I can't imagine it would be easy to have my genetics. Fucking mental disorders and cancer."
Chase: "well mine aren't so good either"

She laughed

Charli: "well it's a good thing it's not getting yours"