Deadly love | Chacha

Love

                      ~Chapter 32~
                             Love

Chases POV:
Love. A short yet complicated word. 

It's the start of relationships. It's the end of them.

It either makes your life or ruins it.

Love comes in 3 forms, platonic, romantic, or unconditional.

I love Charli in 2 of those ways.

Platonically because she is is my best friend. And unconditionally because she is my family and I'd love her no matter what.

But there's a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone.

I love her with all my heart. But I'm not in love with her.

I really like her so much romantically but I don't love her yet in that way...
And I didn't think she loved me in that way either...

But she does and she probably won't remember what she said in the morning but she still said it? And I don't think she would have said it I'd she didn't mean it?

Im sorta freaking out here.

She's in love with me? Again?

I feel bad. I feel horrible. I wish I could let her go but I can't. I'm selfish dating her and I'm making all the same mistakes again.

When I should have stayed, I left. And now when I should leave, I can't.

Especially not after that.

Despite everything I see a future with her, I see us being together forever. Even if it's not romantically.

I can't let her go because if I do, she might never come back.

I sat there in shock as I processed her words.

I won't lie her saying that kinda freaked me but I can't help but smile.

She loves me. She's in love with me.

I wrapped my arms around her sleeping body and kissed her on the head

She's adorable. And she loves me.

I looked down at her stomach and smiled thinking about the fact she was carrying my child.

I just wished she'd be carrying our child.

I leaned my head against her and closed my eyes.

I'm actually so tired.
I need to sleep.

I eventually drifted to sleep thinking about those three words.

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When I woke up charli was still in a deep sleep. Does she need to go back to the hospital? Could she just stay here?
Just for my birthday weekend while Delilah is gone?

I want to spend more time with her

I stood up slowly trying not to wake her but she was In too deep of a sleep to wake up.

Part of me was relived that she was still sleeping because I wondered if she'd remember what she said last night? Would she remember?
Would she remember that I never said it back.

Will she ask? If I love her like she loves me?
I hope not.

    
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