Deadly love | Chacha

Fill the void

~Chapter 69~
Fill the void

Chases POV:
She cannot be doing this. I'm sorry but I'm doing the surgery weather she wants me to or not. I didn't want to before but I have to now, I don't have a choice. Did she see Hayley? She was so happy. You can't tell someone you're giving them some of your lung and then take it back. I have to give it now. I have to.

It's a 3% chance of death. 3%. And that's only on people who are unhealthy and old. I'm neither of those things.

Chase: "babe. I'm doing it."
Charli: "babe. No you're not."

I already said I was. I can't go back on my word .

Chase: "I'm not gonna die.

It is nearly impossible

Charli: "why are you acting like I don't have a right to be worried? Did you see how worried you were about me when I had surgery."
Chase: "that's because you had like a 90% chance of dying!"

She shrugged

Chase: "and I never said you can't be worried. You can. You just can't control weather I do it or not. I didn't say you
couldn't do the surgery when you did yours."
Charli: "Fine. Do it. Do whatever you want. I don't care."

She's mad now. I don't understand. She was begging me to do this like 5 minutes ago. There's risks to every surgery, she knows that.

Chase: "I'm not gonna die!"
Charli: "you might."

I won't. It is almost impossible. I will not die.

Chase: "the surgeons know what they are doing. They did it for you and that surgery was way more complicated"
Charli: "no it's fine. You can do it. Not saying you can't."

How am I supposed to do it now when she's being like this

Chase: "ok"

She scoffed

Chase: "you said I can."
I shrugged

Charli: "do you not understand! I can't lose you! I cannot lose you. You are all I have left?? Everyone has abandoned me. I have no one."

I sighed and put my arms on her shoulders

Chase: "I know you're scared I'm gonna die. I know. But I have more of a chance of dying of a heart attack then dying of this surgery. I have more of a chance of getting in a car crash, I have more of a chance of dying of cancer then dying from this. Every day there's a chance of dying but that doesn't stop me from going outside does it? No. Because we do things anyway. If every day I was thinking about the possibilities of me dying, what's the point of living."

She sighed

Charli: "I guess you're right."
Chase: "I promise I won't die."

She nodded

Charli: "I'm gonna kill you if you do"
Chase: "ha ha. So funny."

  

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After we scheduled the surgery I came home and Charli stayed at the hospital with Hayley. I decided I wanted to surprise Charli with a gift.

I really hope she likes it because I can't return it. I mean I can. But I really don't want to.
Okay. And I kinda wanna keep it for me too.

She might be mad that I didn't ask her before I bought this. But I couldn't resist. I just had to.
There simply were no other options.
I think she will like it though, she'll like it enough not to return it. No one would return this. No one.