Deadly love | Chacha

Withdrawal

~Chapter 61~
Withdrawal

Charlis POV:
I am better than ever. I am amazing. I am great. I feel great. I feel fucking amazing. On top of the world.

Charli: "Pablo pass some more of that"

He passed me some more crystal meth.

Fuck this stuff is so good. I can't go back to fucking weed after this shit. God. It's amazing.

Pablo: "1000, Charli."
He put his hand out

I groaned and looked at the small packet

Charli: "man I don't have that kind of money. Could I get a discount. C'mon. Please. Im a loyal costumer"
Pablo: "the discount is already applied. I gave you 15% off"

I looked around at the junkies beside me and cried

Pablo: "Damn girl. Don't cry. Just take it. Give me the money next time"

I shoved it back at him

All that time I was away I wasn't at therapy. I wasn't cheating. I was getting high with these crack heads. I was getting high on anything I could afford.

I wish I could say I was getting high with some rich guys, and taking it for the fun of it.
But if I said that it wouldn't be true. Because im not getting high at some rich guys mansion with a bunch of rich kids who go to a boarding school. Im getting high at a crack house with a bunch of addicts, buying drugs from street dealers.

It numbs the pain. The drugs numb the pain.

Charli: "I can't do it"
Pablo: "do what"

I looked around at all the dirty people, passed out on the dirty floors of this abandoned house

Charli: "I can't go down this road"

I want the meth. I want to buy a whole bunch of it. But I won't because as soon as I do I won't stop. I won't be able to control it.

Pablo: "then don't. You have a better life out there waiting for you"

I know. I know I do.

Charli: "but I don't want to go back to that life"

It hurts too much.

Pablo: "then why would you?"
Charli: "Man. you know why."

He nodded and sighed heavily

Pablo: "love"

Love.

Charli: "I love him"
Pablo: "Love messes you up Charli. You should've known that"

I did know that. I went for it anyway.

Charli: "i wanna buy that crystal meth. I want to so bad. But I gotta fight for not only myself. But for him. I gotta hold back from it"

He laughed

Pablo: "you are too high to be talking right now"

I laughed and agreed

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I arrived back home late at night.
Pablo drove me home in his stolen car.

I said my proper goodbyes to him because I knew I couldn't take any more drugs. They were messing me up.

I don't even know who I am anymore.

I got home and he was awake at the kitchen

Chase: "I can't keep doing this"