Deadly love | Chacha

New day, New me

~Chapter 66~
New day, New me

Time skip ⏭️
One week later

Charlis POV:
It's been a week without drugs and for real this time. It's not like I really have a choice, Chase doesn't trust me. He keeps a very close eye on me. I wouldn't trust me either because yeah, I am still looking for ways to escape.

But I'm doing a little better now.
My symptoms are worse. But my mental health is the slightest bit better and that's what counts.

I was headed down a dark road and if I continued to go down it, it would've soon been pitch black. Luckily for me, I am now headed the other direction. Yeah, I'm still in the darkness but at least I know I'm trying to get out.

Everything about withdrawal completely sucks. The headaches and aches are terrible. The shaking and sweating is terrible. But the worst part of it all is my mood swings because I feel bad.

One second I will be having a conversation with Chase and the next, I will be yelling at him for some dumb reason.

I feel bad because I know he's just trying to help me. He's exhausted of it too. I see it in him. Every day he's more and more tired. He's got no energy left in himself to deal with me.

He still handcuffs me to anything he can and even though I beg him not to. He doesn't care anymore. He doesn't even listen to me. He just does it and I'm glad he does.

Addiction manipulates you. I tell myself that when I get out of the handcuffs I will be fine. I won't take any more drugs. I won't run away. But then once you do get out the thoughts come back, how bout I just do it once more? Just to prove to myself I can do it or why did I even quit? Was it really that bad?

Your brain tricks you.

I don't go outside at all. It's sad. I look out the window and I see a beautiful view that I refuse to join. The only times I ever go out is when I go to therapy.
But of course Chase doesn't let me go alone. He comes with me and waits in the waiting room.

Chase was staring at me weirdly

Charli: "what?"
Chase: "I have to tell you something that I've been holding off telling you"

Oh no. It's more bad news isn't it.

Charli: "if it's bad, please just don't tell me"

I can't take any more bad.

Chase: "depends how you take it."

What does that mean?

Chase: "it's big. Just... be ready"

I'm getting nervous. What is it.

Charli: "okay... I am ready...?"

What is it

Chase: "so last week... Tristan came over"

Yes I am aware. I was awake when he left.

Chase: "I don't know how much you heard..."

I only heard Tristan calling me a mentally ill burden.

Chase: "but... he told me... um- he- he and Delilah are- they're getting married"