Lost in the Pastel Hues (Sunset Avenues #3)

Chapter 45

Chapter 45

Truth

Paige Legacy

There are lot of things that most people don't know about me and that's fine because I opted it to be kept behind the limelight. Hindi po lahat ng nakikita natin sa camera ay totoo. I am not showing up and telling this tonight before my flight to make it seems like I am the victim. But I also want to protect the people around me, whom I loved the most. If you hate me, ako lang po sana. At huwag nang mangyaring idamay niyo pa ang malapit sa akin. If it's about Mace Brooke, I'm sorry to all the fans if our friendship disturbes you that much and if you think that I have a relationship with him. Hindi po. Sa lahat ng nasaktan ko, sa lahat ng nadamay dahil sa akin, I'm sorry. 

I'm sorry.

If there's something that I would really remember from all those, despite facing everything, it would be the consolation that I was loved by a person in the most selfless way possible. That he was with me when I took my step into my own definition of starting all over again.

Kahit ibig sabihin na wala siya roon. And the kiss.. that was probably the truest that I have ever shown to the camera because I didn't need pretensions.

I could remember that I left the country with the rumors and endless murmurs from people I don't personally know. Sari-saring naririnig na opinyon na kahit nagpahayag ka na ng katotohanan ay mananatili pa ring sariling pananaw ang paniniwalaan ng tao.

And to actually explain yourself?

I thought that statement would end everything. Pero iyon din pala ang simula ng lahat. A beginning to a larger crater.

I arrived in New York, exhausted from where I have been. My agent talked to me in urgency. Maliban sa magkabilang isyu na kinakaharap, kinausap din niya ako tungkol sa mga projects na naghihintay sa akin. Ngunit magulo pa ang utak ko at hindi ko pa kayang gumawa ng isang konkretong desisyon.

Nakarating din sa ibang bansa ang tungkol sa isyung aking kinasangkutan sa Pilipinas. The director, Mr. Jones was also known there and the issue got linked to the photograph I had beside the old man. After giving that statement, I chose to start anew.

Kailangan ko lang talagang magpahinga. Kailangan kong ipahinga ang isip.

"Paige, I knew it! I just waited for the confirmation and you confirmed it through that kiss!" It was Les in her jolly voice. She contacted me after all those photos with Jake.

"What are you saying, Les? I thought you liked him?"

"Oh, god, no. I would never do that to my own best friend, bitch! I just played a little to confirm my hunch and I guess it's true now."

"Miss Legacy, about the man that you kissed back at the Philippine airport.."

Iyon din. It was reckless and indecisive of me to get in the spur of the moment and kiss him. I kissed him just even before I took a step. At bumalik sa akin ang ginawa nang makabalik ng New York. But I couldn't feel the slightest regret of doing the kiss. What I am worried about is him being intrigued and being followed around by the media.

"Who is the mysterious man?"

"Is it your way of debunking the issue that you have a relationship with Mace Brooke, Miss Paige? And is it through dating the mysterious man?"

"Mace Brooke is currently in Thailand for the concert so he can't answer the rumor. Miss Paige, what is your reaction regarding the picture taken at the airport?"

Kumalat pa ang mga pictures sa airport. And it was truly seen there that I initiated the kiss. Ako ang bumalik sa kan'ya at ako rin ang humalik. You are really brave when you know that you are about to leave, huh, Paige.