Renesmee's Story (A Twilight Fan Fiction) *BEING EDITED*

Chapter 13- Part 3

Sometimes I wish I could sleep. Being awake all the time is going to drive me insane, especially when I want to just forget about everything for a while. Forget about this whole business with the Volturi. Forget the fact that my whole family, including Jake, have forgotten about my birthday.

I know dad cannot read my mind as I asked mum to put her shield up around me again and I have remained close to her ever since. I just want to be left alone in my thoughts. I don't want them to only remember my birthday due to dad over-hearing my disappointment about it through my thoughts.

"Nes, you OK?" Jake asks me, taking me away from my thoughts for a little while.Until he spoke to me I guess I have appeared quite rude. Everyone is engaged in conversation in the living room at Carlisle's while I have just been sitting here, thinking.

I look at him beside me and give a slight smile, even though I definitely don't feel happy right now. I hope he cannot see through it.

"I'm fine, why?" I ask, trying to place the conversation back onto him, away from me and the truth of how I feel right now.

He shrugs his shoulders. "You've been really quiet."

"Oh, guess that's a tad rude," I say, laughing, trying to appear fine. He smiles and shakes his head, turning to speak to mum about whatever he was before. I guess I convinced him . . . for once.

I don't know how long I was sitting there, not speaking, conversation of everyone drowned out by the thoughts taking my concentration in my own mind. All I know is that eventually mum stops talking suddenly and asks me to take a walk with her, to see what is 'wrong with me'.

"Nothing is wrong," I reply nonchalantly.

"Don't lie, I can just take the shield off and ask your father to find out for me," she states.

I let out a deep and long breath. "I'm just disappointed, that's all."

"Disappointed about what?" she asks.

"Nothing, don't worry about it."

"Disappointed about what?" she repeats.

"Mum, don't worry, the point that you have to ask is what I'm disappointed in," I say, my annoyance obvious in my tone of voice.

Calm down,I think.Keep your emotions in check.

"What are you talking about? How am I suppose to know? I cannot read your mind."

"You're my mother, you should know," I say, sounding more calm.

"Know what?"

I sigh, knowing I have to go to my room or something before I yell at her, knowing that if I do I'll regret it.

"You should just know," I say, my voice sounding strained as I leave mum in the kitchen and go upstairs, to my room.

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