Renesmee's Story (A Twilight Fan Fiction) *BEING EDITED*

Chapter 10-Part 2

Okay, now what? I am home alone with nothing to do and immediately start thinking of Jake again. How can I be so cold-hearted? He must hate me right now, or worried sick. No, he must definitely hate me. How long do I think I will last? I am so mean, so spiteful. How can I hurt someone so severely who cares so much for me?

I check the land-line for any missed calls. Zero voice messages. I check mum's phone which she left on the coffee table in the living room. No missed calls. Wait, one, one missed call. And it is from Jake. I quickly go into the voice-messages and check if a message has been left. He left a message about half an hour ago, as soon as he left me, I presume.

"Hi Bells it's Jake.

I know Renesmee doesn't want to speak to me right now, but I don't know about you. If everything is okay can you please let me know. Keep me up to date with the Volturi too. That's my fault and I am going to be in on it. I know Renesmee's thinks I'll get hurt. But have I let you down before? You know me, Bells. So just please don't leave me out of this.

Call me back when you get this, thanks."

The sound of his voice is no different to hearing it from him speaking to my face. It pains to hear his voice, his words. I delete the message, I didn't stop him from talking to me so he can still be in on everything. I want him to have nothing to do with it. Nothing to do with me.

I go to find dad's phone and he has left it upstairs. Jake left a similar message but I delete that one too. No way is he staying in this. He is not being involved in this, not now, not ever. If I can't see him to keep him safe I will do it, not matter what cost.

I go into my room and sit on my bed, not knowing what else to do. What is there to do? I have eternity and haven't got anything planned. No plans, no life set. No goals. No dreams. Nothing, I might as well be actually dead. All what I have now is my family, I don't even have Jake anymore.

I log into my computer and my skype comes up. I don't have many on skype, just Jake, some others from the wolf pack and family. The only one I have messages from is Jake. I see that he is online and immediately appear offline, I don't want to talk to him. However I do read the messages.

'Nes, please message me when you get on.'

I immediately block him on my contacts list. I will fail at not speaking and seeing him if he keeps messaging me, I can't have any contact atall. I hear the front door open downstairs and know mum and dad could've done it quieter if didn't want me to hear but they want me to know they are home. They want me down there. I shut my laptop and start walking downstairs, taking my time. I jump down from a high step straight down to the floor.

"What's up?" Mum and dad's faces appear grave. Something has happened, or they have heard something.

"The Volturi are going to be here in only four days."

"Only four days?! What? I thought we had a couple months!"

"We did, not anymore. Guess they changed their plans," mum answers. I look at dad, they can't be serious.

"That's not the worst thing." Dad says.

"What's the worst thing?" I ask. Mum and dad exchange looks. "What's the worst thing?" I ask again, hoping they will answer me this time.

"We know they are coming earlier because Alice had a premonition of them actually being here, with us."

"What's so bad-" I stop mid-sentence, knowing exactly what is wrong with it. "Alice was able to see it. She cannot see images when werewolves are involved." My mother and father both nod.

"That's a good thing. Jake and the others aren't involved, they won't get hurt. Good."

"Renesmee, that means Jake, all of them aren't there. It is only our family." Mum clarifies for me.

"You're mum is right. Alice cannot see it if any of them are there. That means none of the wolves are there. It's only the Volturi and us," dad states.

"I know. That's good, he won't get hurt. None of them will. Now if that is all can I go back to my room, I was in the middle of something." I say, not waiting for an answer before I start walking back upstairs.

Im happy Jake and the other wolves will not be there, because then they will not get hurt at the protection of my family once again. I got my wish, I didn't want him involved in any of this. And now he isn't. But I cannot help but feel some-what abandonment from Jake. And it breaks my heart, because now I have finally realised how much I did hurt Jake. And now I have realised, and I know it is selfish -considering I wanted him gone-, how much I really do want him here, with me.