She's mine

14

The party was honestly freaking huge. There were so many people.

"Just breathe baby."

I looked over at Billy as he killed the engine and I gave him a small smile.

"There's a lot of people here." I said as I looked out the car window then back to Billy.

"Do you want to just go home baby?"

*Yes. Absolutely. Please take me home.

"No. I'm Just nervous I guess babe. I'm ready though." I said as I took a deep breath getting out of the car.

Billy could tell I was lying straight through my teeth but I didn't wait for him to stop me. I just walked towards the party. Billy ran towards me grabbing my hand making me jumb slightly.

"I know you don't want to be here. We can just go home baby."

I looked at Billy and smiled a bright smile. As if I was trying to sell my obvious lie. "I want to be here. You go have fun with your friends okay. I'll be inside with the alcohol."

I kissed Billy and headed for the house and he headed for the keg stand and the group of guys I didn't know. Hell I don't even think they really knew him. They were all looking at me as I kissed Billy and walked away though, but I didn't say anything. I walked into the house and made my way to the kitchen.

I grabbed a red solo cup and I filled it with the juice that was in the big clear juice bowl. I downed the drink trying to calm my nerves and anxiety as I looked around the excessively massive fucking party. By my fourth cup my anxiety had left the building. I grabbed the bottle of tequila next as soon as I seen it and made my way up the stairs.

"Cool room." I said to myself as I browsed the books that lined three walls floor to ceiling. After a short browse I climbed out the window and sat down on the roof. No I'm not one of those people that read at parties. I just admired the amount of books. I didn't actually pick one. After a few big gulps of the tequila I laid back on the roof looking up at the stars.

The stars were huge and beautiful. They looked so close tonight. However stars always looked better in the middle of no where. That's where we were. On a back road in no where Indiana.

I just laid on the roof drinking the bottle of tequila as I relaxed and examined the stars. I was remember all the consolations my sister had taught me years ago. Well I was trying to but they were blurry. So it was hard to make out. The stars weren't necessarily blurry. It was definitely my vision. However I wasn't actually going to admit that.

I'm not sure how long I was on the roof for but the bottle was almost gone when I heard him.

"Baby! What are you doing?"

I sat up on the roof and looked down at Billy smiling a cheesy smile.

"Nothing. Just chillin." I said as I took another drink from the bottle. Billy couldn't help but smile and laugh a little at me. I think he felt relieved that I was trying to enjoy myself.

That smile instantly faded when my hand slipped and I fell down onto the roof hitting my back onto the roof with a grunt.

"I shouldn't have sat up." I said to myself.

"BABY!!!" Billy screamed. I didn't even realize he had darted inside the house after me when I yelled I was fine.

"Are you hurt?"

I looked over at the still opened window looking at billy with semi wide eyes and slightly confused as to how fast he made it up here and through the crowd.

"Babe I'm fine I promise. Jeez you got up here fast."

Billy climbed out onto the roof laying down beside me. "Well your fucking drunk."

I looked at billy and snorted. "Am not, you are. Wait are you mad at me?"

Billy looked at me and smiled then he looked back up at the stars. "No princess I am not mad at you. I promise. I'm glad you had a good time."

"Did you have fun loverboy?"

Billy grabbed my hand still looking at the stars. "I did, did you?"

I laughed nodding my head at his question.

"Come on let's get your drunk ass home and into bed."

I looked at billy laughing as he helped me through the window slowly. The moment I stood up I became instantly aware of just how drunk I actually was. The room was spinning and I was so unbelievably dizzy. Billy noticed it too because he grabbed a hold of me.

"I'm sorry. I ruined your night."

Billy looked at me and shook his head. "You didn't I promise baby. I'm glad you had fun. Even though you didn't really want to come."

I looked at billy and snorted as he put me in the car. I didn't even make it back to the house before I passed out in the passenger seat. I did however remember hearing billy chuckle as my eyes fluttered open and shut before I was finally was out cold.

"Baby we're home."

I looked over at Natalie sleeping and I couldn't help but smile at her.

"God she is perfect."

I walked over grabbing Natalie into my arms and carrying her into the house.

"Is she okay?" My dad asked me as I walked in carrying Natalie.

"Yeah she's fine. She just found the tequila at a party we went to."

My dad laughed as he shut the front door and locking it for me.

"Thanks." I said as he gave me a small smile nodding his head and heading back to his room. My dad liked Natalie a lot. Hell everyone did. She was amazing. What was there to not like?

The moment I laid her in my bed she moaned slightly. Most likely from the mix of alcohol and the movement from me carrying her. I took her hair out and then I slipped her shoes off of her.

The next step was changing her clothes which was the hardest task of the night. She was dead fucking weight from the alcohol. Which was like trying to move a dead body. However after a good ten minutes of struggle I managed to get her stripped and into a shirt of mine. Which was her favorite thing to sleep in.

"Mmm come to bed" Natalie said in a whiney low drunk and slurred voice. Which made me chuckle. I stripped my own clothes off climbing into the bed after I put my trash can next to Natalie.

"Come here princess." I said as I wrapped my arms around her. Natalie sunk into me and within seconds she was back fast asleep. Only this time was much more better because she was finally in my arms.

"Goodnight princess. I love you."

I said it knowing she couldn't hear me or reply and if she did she wouldn't actually remember, because she was wasted. What a pussy move right? However I couldn't stop myself. I wanted to tell her so badly but I was scared. Aside from my mom and max I never cared about a single person in my life. Yet with Natalie I couldn't help but be so in love with her I would probably jump in front of a bullet for her.

Which is crazy to me. Billy Hargrove doesn't fall in love. Yet here I am. Loving someone other then myself. Even with max I love that little shit but I treated her so badly. I always have. I honestly hate myself still for the way I have treated her. Sure Natalie has changed mine and max's relationship but that past and the hurt I put max through is still there. It probably always will be.

I stayed awake most of the night holding Natalie. Making sure she was okay. I've been dating her for months and I've never once seen her drunk. She was shit faced drunk. She was kind of cute when she was drunk. It made me smile. I finally fell asleep a little passed two thirty.