She's mine

13

When we got back to school I was surprised when Steve made his way over to me.

"Can we talk?"

I looked over at him and I'm sure my face had the emotions covering it that I was feeling in this moment. Shock, confusion, nervousness. I tried to mask my face but honestly I'm not sure if it actually worked. I took a second to compose my inner self and then I finally spoke.

"About what Steve?" I even managed to sound irritated as I said that. Steve didn't mention the irritation in my voice. He just went on to say why he was at my locker.

"I'm sorry okay. I've been an ass lately."

Something we can both agree on.

"Yeah your right you have. So is that all?" I asked letting my face tell him that he wasn't getting off that easy. Which he noticed because he sighed before he spoke again.

"No. Look your all I've had for a while Natalie. I feel like, I don't know like I'm sort of loosing you in a way. Also I'm just scared. Scared that your going to get hurt again."

Fair point, but still you're not getting off Scott free buddy.

"Look Steve your my cousin and my best friend. Which honestly is kind of pathetic on my part but whatever. If it wasn't for you I don't know where I would be at, but he isn't the bad guy. Your treating him like he is. You're also being a dick to me instead of I don't know just talking to me like a normal person."

Steve looked at me nodding his head. "I know. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry Natalie. I'll do better."

God why is it that he's been a dick for months and I feel bad that I'm about to match him?

"I love you Steve and I owe you everything. I do, but you can't control me and expect me to be okay with it. You can't treat me and my boyfriend like shit because you feel left out."

"I know Nat. Billy and me talked and we're good. No more issues I swear. Now I just have to fix me and you."

What?

I looked at Steve confusion lining my face. "When did you two talk?"

Steve looked at me and shrugged his shoulders. "A few nights ago. Look the point is no more issues with us. Billy and me were on the same side now. Isn't that what you wanted?"

I know damn well he ain't trying to justify this shit.

"Well I don't forgive you. You don't get to be a complete ass and treat people like shit, and expect everything to be okay. I just need time." I said.

Steve looked hurt but I didn't care. I honestly probably would have forgiven him if he didn't try to excuse his behavior. I don't know why he couldn't just own it and move on. Instead he had to make excuses and try to justify it.

Billy was across the hallway leaning on lockers watching Steve and I, but he wasn't saying anything.

"Natalie." Steve said in a soft low sad voice. I choose to ignore him.

"Walk me to class lover boy." I said as I looked over at Billy shutting my locker.

"You got it baby girl." Billy walked over to me giving Steve an apologetic look as he took my hand. I didn't say anything else to Steve. I just simply walked away hand in hand with Billy.

"So you didn't forgive him?" Billy asked me half way down the hallway. I looked up at Billy and sighed at his surprised look.

"Don't give me that look babe. I will forgive him when I'm ready. Not when he wants me to. He went months without even talking to me."