She's mine

18

Eddie came over to the house a lot in the last week. So did Steve. Max was rarely home. She was always with her friends. I mean which made sense it was summer break. Steve refused to walk across the stage so his diploma was being mailed. Billy had to wait for Hawkins to get his transcripts to make sure he completed everything he had to, before they would give him his diploma.

"So where are you going to college?" Eddie asked Billy and Steve. The moment he did the reality hit my chest like a fucking cement truck.

"I'm not going to college. I'm staying here. I don't wanna miss Natalie and Nancy's senior year. I'm probably gonna take a gap year or just not go to college at all."

I looked at Steve furrowing my brows at him. I had know idea that was his plan.

"I didn't get in anywhere." Steve said as he looked at me.

"I'm sorry. What about community college?" I asked him. Steve didn't say anything. He just shrugged his shoulders.

"I'm going back to California. I'm still waiting on two letters to decide which school though."

I looked over at Billy and he could see the sadness on my face. I'm pretty sure everyone could honestly. I didn't say a single thing though. No one did. We all just ignored the elephant in the room.

"Well looks like I can step up when Billy leaves." Eddie said with a smile. He was making a joke but no one laughed besides him. Which he didn't laugh for very long because he realized it was a bad joke.

We all just hung out watching movies and eventually made our way to the pool for a swim. Billy and me were off all day from the college conversation. He didn't even tell me where he had applied to let alone it being in California.

Long distance relationship rarely work. I was bothered by the whole thing but I wasn't going to stop him. It was his future. I just never really let myself think about how Billy and I would end. We both knew that day would always come, but it wasn't real until now. We only had a little while longer together before he packed up and moved away.

Leaving me, and max both behind. Max didn't ever bring it up. I'm not sure if it bothered her at all. She didn't seem like it did. Then again max didn't really talk about how she felt. She kind of just rolled with it and avoided her issues and feelings.

"Baby?"

I heard Billy and I shut my thoughts off as I moved slightly. We were both on the lounger and his arms were around me while I sat in front of him. My back firmly against his chest as we just sat like that.

"Hmmm?" I asked lightly without even opening my mouth.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you."

His words hit me like a dump truck and I just stayed still against him. I didn't say anything though.

"Baby? I'm sorry. We will figure it out though. This doesn't mean we are breaking up. You know that right? Nothing is gonna happen to us. I promise. I promise princess I'm never leaving you. Your gonna be in diapers wondering how we're still together."

I knew Billy was trying to make a joke out of the situation to lighten the mood. To lighten the feelings we were both facing deep within our selves. However I didn't laugh. I just stayed completely still on Billy grabbing onto his arms that were wrapped around me. I could feel the few stray tears running down my face but I didn't make a single noise telling him I was crying.

"I don't wanna talk about it Billy. I just wanna stay like this for a while longer."

I couldn't see his face but I knew he was upset too.