Queen's Princess

Chapter 62

"What did ya want to talk about?" Odessa asked as she walked out of the bathroom, her towel around her neck, letting her hair fall down to its natural length.

I looked over at her, slightly trembling. While I loved her, I didn't want to tell her what I was feeling. But I needed to. She deserved to know how I was feeling when I saw that footage of her being an absoulte beast to Junkrat and Roadhog. I turned away from her, looking anywhere other than her curious gaze.

"I went over to the guard tower today," I slowly said, feeling tears starting to form. What the hell was I crying for?

"Ya saw the footage, didn't ya?"

"I did."

She walked over and sat on the opposite side of the bed, "Your thoughts?"

"I love you, Dez, please don't get that wrong."

"I know, princess."

"But what I saw, scared me. Geniuenly scared me. It scared me more than when you first dealt with Junkrat and Roadhog when we first found out that they stole from ya. I was a bit scared to see your reaction to when I got shot from Junkrat. But seeing how you were with them yesterday, I'm just," I was lost for words as I tried to think of something.

"I've been called many things since people saw me fight against Mason. Intimidating was mostly what they called me. Some called me a tank, a beast, all of those kinds of things. Some were in disbelief that a woman could be as or even stronger than a man. But no one has ever said that they were afraid of me."

Tears slipped from my eyes and dropped onto the mattress below. I was hoping she didn't see because it would cause more issues to occur. And I wanted to address how I was feeling before I was comforted. 

"Do ya need time for yourself, Y/N?" she asked after a few moments of silence.

"What do ya mean, Odessa?"

"Exactly as I mean. Do ya need time alone to gather your thoughts and feelings before we officially talk about this?"

I let out a sigh, "What will ya do if I say yes?"

"I'll head over to the office building and sleep there until you're ready to talk. Hell, I might go over to the couch if ya don't like the first idea."

"I don't know, Odessa."

She stood up and walked into the bathroom, removing the towel and placing it on the sink. She walked out and put her shoes on before grabbing Carnage and her gun. Walking over to me, she sat down in front of me, putting her hand underneath my chin, making me look up at her. 

"I don't want to scare ya, Y/N," she said, a softness to her voice. "That'd make me not only a terrible queen, but a terrible wife to ya. And I have a duty to ya first before the town. While we're away from each other for a bit, take care of yourself, Y/N. Ya know I'll always be here to talk to ya."

She pressed a light kiss to my lips before getting up and walking out of the house. I listened to her footsteps as she walked down the stairs. Soon, I wasn't able to hear her footsteps anymore and that was when everything came at once. Tears started to stream down my face to where I placed my hands over my eyes, crying in them. Of all the times she had left to either fight in the Burning Lands, fight in Overwatch, and such, this was the first time I got this emotional over it. Maybe it was because I was the reason she left on purpose. Maybe I shouldn't have told her what I was feeling and just kept it to myself. But what's done is done. I can't take it back now. I flopped down onto the bed and stared at the empty space beside me, bringing me back to when I was alone in here when she went to join Overwatch. 

"I'm sorry, Dez," I whispered and fell asleep due to how much I cried. 

I was sitting in my throne looking at some of the paperwork that needed to be done. Letting out a sigh, I ran my hand through my hair, which was still down. Leaning back, I pressed my head against the back of the chair, looking at the door that was closed. It was pretty late at night, but some part of me was expecting Y/N to walk through those doors, ready to talk. But I knew better than to expect that. Besides, it's only been a couple of hours since we talked to one another. I needed to give her time. I needed to give myself time to understand where I went wrong in that. Maybe I let my anger get the better of me, but how could I not get angry when someone hurt the one I loved the most. Standing up, I walked out of the throne room and into the bedroom that was across from it.

Closing the door behind me, I turned on the light and walked over to the large window that overlooked the back part of the town. There were people walking the streets, laughing, talking, having a good time with one another. I smiled to myself, knowing that they were in a better place. I wanted to believe it was because of me, but those doubts crept into my mind. What if they found me scary as well? Would that be the reason why they follow the rules well? I'd like to think that Mason probably put them through some hell whenever he was ruling. Shaking my head, I turned on the lamp that was on the bedside table before turning off the main lights. I sat down on the edge of the bed, still looking out at the town, letting my thoughts flood my mind, which one washed over me like I was drowning in water. I was breathing heavily to where I thought I was going to pass out. I clutched at my chest, trying to get control of my breathing, trying to clear my head of that wretched thought.

My worst fear was coming true: I was going to lose the one I love and cherish the most.