Past, Present, No Future. (Harry Styles)

93. Gotta Stay High

-: Missing someone comes in many ways, shape, or form. Most times one doesn't even realise they do miss someone.

Missing a person is the worst and best thing you can feel. Best as in it makes you determined to see that person again, worst as in it edges you to want to see that person again.

The amount of loss and sadness we feel for each other is so exceeded, that one of us don't even realise how lost we are without the other.

Because missing someone comes in many ways, shape, or form. And although the different limits people will reach to take away the feeling, every limit is an extreme. :-

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"Ness, the rest of us are going to the store to get groceries. Do you want to come along?" Gen asked, startling me when I was doodling on my hand.

"Umm" I looked to the door, "Actually, I'll be fine here you guys go ahead"

She smiled and nodded, grabbing her cell phone on her way out.

The house was quiet, and if you listened close enough you can hear the waves from outside hit the damp sand.

I was never one to like sand very much, but I always found myself just sitting in it whilst the sun was out.

I'd watch the people cliff diving in the distant and wonder what kind of courage they had to actually jump off a cliff. Something I wanted to know.

Today I didn't sit on the sand, I stood and watched wondering if they were just random people or if this was an activity people paid for.

And I actually considered leaving for just a small amount of time to check it out.

Gen and the boys got back earlier than I expected, deciding today was an off day and all we'd do is relax.

The next morning came, and Ashton noticed my fascination with the cliffs and suggested we all go and hike up there.

So we all agreed, and I put on my converse and brought a small bag of snacks and water with me.

I had shorts on, and a sleeveless shirt to compliment the heat of today. Gen brought a bag as well, knowing Luke and Michael's appetite, she slung the bag over her shoulder and she complained how the flannel around her waist kept getting stuck in the bags strap.

We took the jeep as far a vehicle could go. About a quarter up the mountain, I put my hair up on a pony tail and took the first sip of my water.

"Oh how much I hate exercise" Gen said, sounding out of breath and pressing her palms on her knees.

I giggled, continuing to walk as I was excited to reach the cliffs.

"Let's take a break" Luke told us, sitting on a bench that was decently placed.

I sat next to Ashton, taking another sip of my water before putting it back in my bag.

"You liking it so far?" Ashton asked.

"The hike?"

He chuckled, "No, Australia"

"Oh" I giggled, "Yeah, very much" I replied looking at the city in front of us, "There's this foreign beauty to it that I love"

"Well, I'm glad you like it" Ashton smiled.

I smiled back, looking at the creases of his cheeks when he smiles and the dimples formed on the corners.

We went back to the hike a couple minutes later, getting closer to the cliff which I was sure was partly empty since I didn't hear any voices.

"So this is why you all came" Gen said, wiping a bead of sweat from her forehead, "Let me just say this before hand, I am still not jumping off that bloody thing"