Past, Present, No Future. (Harry Styles)

26. No More Heart Break

Walking in cold weather was the last thing I wanted to do today but I guess what I want these days just doesn't happen anymore.

I stuffed my hands in the pockets of my jacket when the wind hit my face. I can't wait until spring which is about half a month away.

After putting my hood on I buzzed myself into the building shivering whilst I entered the lift.

The closer I got to the flat the more I became carefree to do this. It's not like anything was going to happen. I just wanted to figure out why he messaged me. Or to say goodbye. I mean I haven't seen him in days, I mean over a week is long enough.

Knowing Harry he put the spare key back under the carpeting and sure enough there it was. I unlocked the door calling out for him.

"Harry?" I placed the key on the bar hearing water running as a response.

Taking off my jacket I sighed figuring out he was in the shower. Now what? I couldn't just leave, all my stuff was here including my family pictures and my book. I guess I can take them now whilst he was-

Ding!

I turned my head to the sound seeing Harry's phone flash, I walked over to it seeing it was a missed call from Niall. I picked it up swiping my finger across the screen entering the same pass code making me tilt my head at the notes app that was opened when it unlocked.

I began to read over the words gasping after seeing my name, a few times. After I saw my name at least three times I had to read the whole thing.

Vanessa I know I screwed up, fuck I did more than screw up but I was jealous okay. There I said it damn. But seeing you with Luke makes me uneasy, yes I know he's with Gen and I realise that now but I didn't want him to take you like he did with Gen. Fuck no that came out wrong! Shit okay I meant taking her as my best friend, I don't see her as anything more I swear. She's just my good friend fuck I'm getting off topic.

I knitted my eyebrows. What is this?

I continued to read on.

I hate me too.

I sighed putting the phone down the rub my forehead and sat at the bar to read the rest.

I lied about the reason for you to move in with me Vanessa I didn't just say that to get you to live with me, I lied about how sex didn't define our relationship. I like you. A lot.

Oh God.

I'm ready. I'm ready to move on, I'm ready to stop thinking of Alison before I do anything with you. Shit that came out wrong too. God I mess up too much, I've never watched what I say so much. You make me this way, you should know that. Vanessa I just want you back...

Oh God!

I put the phone down trying to process all of this. What was this and why was it saved on his phone? When did he write this? Did he even write this? Of course he did who else would've written it on his phone?!

"Vanessa?" I was pulled away and scared half to death by Harry standing at the head of the hallway with wet hair and a towel around his waist.

"Ummm" I jumped off the bar stool pushing the cell phone away.

"Were you on my phone?" Jt asked looking at the device on the bar table.

"No" I lied.

"Vanessa?"

I swallowed the lump in my throat, "What was it? That note"

His eyes widened and it was his turn to swallow the lump in his throat.