Past, Present, No Future. (Harry Styles)

30. Days and Nights

The phone call from Beth really freaked me out, I didn't think she would actually call.

"Hi, Beth, um. How are you?"

"I'm fine but uh, I just don't have anyone to talk to as stupid as that sounds"

"It doesn't sound stupid at all, I actually know what it feels like" I got comfortable on the couch, "But I can say I've been told that I'm a good listener"

I heard her laugh nervously on the other line, "Anything you want to let out I won't judge" I told her.

"I don't really like you" she said.

"Okay then" I giggled having her join me, "I can say the same to you"

"I didn't like you because I felt like I had too, I thought if we were friends it wouldn't be right tto Alison, like I'd be replacing her"

"You're not, I know I can never be her Beth. I actually would rather not be her at all I know how much she meant to you guys and I can never be that close to you"

"They like you, I can tell they do. Especially Gen and Mel, they like you more then they like me"

"Don't say that, they're your best friends"

"I know what people say Vanessa, I know what the talk about behind my back. I know what Harry's told you"

"He didn't say-"

"He told you that I started Ally in all that heavy stuff didn't he?"

"Y-yeah" I admitted.

"You give a girl some cocaine for one night and people blame you for the rest of history, I gave her the fucking stuff because she begged for it. Pried it out of my hand if you want to call it"

"What?"

"Alison told me she needed a stress reliever, I didn't want to give it to her because I knew she would get addicted to the shit"

"Really?"

"Yeah" she let out a sigh, "I've been blamed ever since, it hurts...a lot. When Harry looks at me as if I killed Alison myself, like her blood is in my hands"

"He feels guilty about it, he's told me so much about Alison's death"

"Did he tell you about what he did to her before she died"

"He tried to get her to stop didn't he?"

"He did try very hard. But the words didn't help her, her last words to him were-"

"I hate you" I interrupted her, "he told me"

"Vanessa she called him after that" she told me.

"Wait, what?" I gasped.

"Ally called Harry after she walked out on him, she didn't tell me what she said but it had to be important"

"He didn't tell me anything about that"

"I don't know what to tell you I'm sorry"

"Who are you talking too babe?" Harry padded up behind me leaning down to rest his chin on my shoulder.

"I have to go-"

"Just say I'm Mel" she sensed my situation.

"I have to go Mel" I said hanging up the phone and turning to Harry.

"It's getting late you should get to bed" he said rubbing our noses together the walking back to the room pulling the waistband of his gray sweat pants higher.