I Really Dont Care (Rants)

I don't know...

I'm so confused right now..

for some reason I feel depressed, yet I feel uplifted and tired at the same time. I don't know what in the world you'd call that, yet I'm not even sure it has a name! Maybe I'm stressed about some private stuff, I guess.

"There's always gonna be another mountain,

always gonna wanna make it move,

always gonna be an uphill battle,

sometimes I'm gonna have to loose.

ain't about how fat I get there,ain't about what's waiting on the other side,

its the climb."

~Miley Cyrus.

this song has been on repeat alot in the past few hours. Its just so inspiring, and it really does something unexplainable to me. And I feel like telling the people I'd least expect to tell on earth about how I feel right now. Idk why I just do. I want to know what to do, but i don't. I don't want to talk to my family about it though. They'd make it even worse by idk why. Idk alot of things right now. Idk what I'm feeling idk if it has a name idk if I'm gonna tell anyone idk idk idk. There's too much stress i think.

oh and apparently Mini Bagel is on crutches (I only know that because I'm in a mysterious group chat with him and Gino, Nakanowhere, Avery and Shamari). And I'm very tempted to tell him, "try being in a wheelchair for a few months" because I will be after surgery but I really don't wanna be mean because i only tease my friends and its not a big deal because I'm not mean. So yeah.

continue on with your lives while I attempt to keep mine together but I keep on dropping the pieces. Byessss