I Really Dont Care (Rants)

Breakdancing Bananas

GUYS 

OMB 

IM SO CUNFUZZLED 

ill get to that in a second. 

So anyways at lunch Shamari took my banana and like started making it breakdance and we were all dying of laughter and questioning why we werent related in any way and it did flips and spun around on its head and we died and then Shamari said it was gonna do the splits so she took a knife and cut the bottom in half then made it do the splits and i like died then. 

and my flour baby turned out okay. Alexandra is now sleeping in her "crib" made out of a laundry basket, blankets and pillows. 

Speaking of Alexandra, my mom wants to call her Lexi but im like "no it sounds like shes some kind of white bleach blond stripper" and so on the way home i accidentally called her Lexi (and at this point i felt like i was seriously dreaming) and so my mom said "you just called her Lexi" and on instinct, without thinking i dropped the f bomb...and i wish i couldve died right there. apparently it wasnt a big deal since my mom was laughing but i AM STILL BEATING MYSELF UP OVER IT LIKE IM SUPPOSED TO BE A GOOD GIRL AND BE ALL INNOCENT AND PERFECT AND NOT SAY STUFF LIKE THAT BUT NOOOOI HAVE TO ACCIDENTALLY LET THAT WORD SLIP OUT IN FRONT OF MY BIRTH GIVER well at least it wasnt my dad....holy moly that couldve gotten ugly in the blink of an eye...

anyways back to why im cunfuzzled...so in PHS Ms. Turbay handed me this weird professional looking envelope and so i tore it open and waited till i finished my work to really read it. apparently she nominated me to travel to Washinton DC in the spring of 2016 to attend the Jr. National Leaders Conference or something like that and it was so professional looking and im like "crap i just literally tore open the seal to shreds and this is so freaking professional" anyways it's apparently a HUGE honor and only one student from a few intermediate schools from around the counrty are nominated and like they have to be a leader, good teamwork skills, communication skills, respectful, get above average grades and excel as a student....BUT GUYS IM A WEIRDO FOR LIFE THIS ISNT THE PLACE FOR ME! but yet it seems like it is because its a huge honor and it'd be a good thing to list if i qualify for National Honors Society in high school and a good thing to list on applications for jobs and college. AND THIS TRIP COULD GET ME SCHOLARSHIPS LIKE OMB SERIOUSLY but theres like a project i have to do, something like project Outreach for DI, but by myself and im excited to see if i can actually go. id be representing my school in the nations capital. like, its not everyday you get to do that. but the downside is there's a really strict dress code like girls cant wear denim or short skirts or have their shoulders showing and i have to wear khakis and crap and a blouse and ugh but other than that i really want to do this. it could really help me down the path to the career i want. 

so ill update you guys on that stuff later once i find more info on it. for now thats all i got. 

bye 

HA HURRRR