I Really Dont Care (Rants)

Woah...

so I was cleaning out my room so hopefully we can move my bed out into the living room so I can have my own room and I ran across memories and pictures from my past. like the home made card Caisa gave me for my 11th birthday. and pictures from the Turkey Trots Northampton used to have every November. Then I went back in thought and remember how I was in elementary: I was a very shy girl who was petrified to speak in front of the class. I was afraid of getting in trouble. I hated people looking at me. and I remember my several attempts to audition for the talent show in 1st and 4th grade. 1st grade I actually made it on the floor, yet I didn't have a dance together so I made up 2 moves, stopped and cried. 4th grade, ;ets just say I didn't even step in front of people. I talked to my mom and said I wasn't gonna do it, then ran to Shamari and sobbed. 5th grade was different, though. I did sob, yet my band, the Bobs (XD) actually auditioned. I was so freaking proud of myself, and couldn't wait to hear the results. then since I was one of the few that was an announcer in the morning for the morning announcements, I'd know who was in before school even started. I was rushing to the front office to see the list, yet Becca had beaten me to it. she looked up and saw me, and mouthed, "we made it." and I like exploded inside. that was one of the happiest moments of my life. the performance was amazing, people were clapping along and I just...I was amazingly happy that last day.

I had changed from this shy little girl into an outgoing teen. I am not afraid anymore. sure, I get last minute jitters before I preform alone or anything, but those are normal. what I had was full blown stage fright. im really proud of myself now. Im amazed at what I've accomplished in my years of middle school. soon enough i'll be headed to high school...wait a minute...HIGH SCHOOL?!