I Really Dont Care (Rants)

Secrets

heyyyy humans 

interesting story from first period. 

so i was getting ready for class to start, getting everything out and grabbing my calculator, when i hear Thomas say from behind me, "Did you know that if you make a girl laugh when they're on their period all of the...stuff will come out?" and i sit there like...I KNOW THAT VERY WELL THANK YOU VERY MUCH. AND SNEEZING IS JUST FABULOUS AS WELL. 

MALES WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE STRUGGLES OF FEMALES LIKE WE BLEED ONCE A MONTH UNTIL WE'RE LIKE 60, WE CARRY AROUND A HUMAN INSIDE OF OUR BODIES FOR NINE MONTHS, WE STRUGGLE TO WALK UP AND DOWN STAIRS WITHOUT BOOB PAIN, BOOBS ARE A STRUGGLE IN GENERAL, WE'RE LABELED AND TOLD HOW TO LOOK OR WHO TO BE. LIKE MALES WONT UNDERSTAND OUR STRUGGLES. 

anyways...

so you know how i have a secret that Grayson told Becca? well yeah, that secret is haunting me, i swear. im trying to push it all aside and ignore it, but i cant. no matter how hard i try, it's always there. i wish that life hadnt become so complex and perplexing for us. why do we have to grow up? cant we stay in Neverland with Peter Pan, Wendy and Tinker Bell? that life would be perfect. anyways, i couldnt stop thinking about it throughout the entire 7th period. my mind kept on wandering to random places and leading back to the secret and i was frustrated. i want to open up to people, but i have serious trust issues. i mean, what if i tell them all of my secrets and then they go off telling them to different people? i dont want that to happen. im honestly really scared because people would maybe look down upon me for the secret, and i dont want that. i want people to like me for me. if they cant handle me as myself, they dont deserve me at all. im still scared, though. a few words wont completely get rid of the weight on my shoulders. itll always be there. but i can slowly get rid of it. 

so im trying to hide that secret, and so far the only people who know are Nalani, Kayla B, Kayla N, Becca, Grayson, Maya, Ashlyn, and possibly Ethan. Ethan made an inference about it, and i was shocked that he was right. i dont know how he guessed so correctly, but he did. i dont know if i can keep this secret much longer. 

so today when i got home i found two packages for me from the mail and one was info for the DC trip and the other was a huge package with a sky blue t shirt inside that has a pic of Abe Lincoln and says Washington DC. im guessing its the official shirt for the trip?? its really cool nevertheless. im excited. 

so yeah. 

thats all for tonight. 

bye

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