I Really Dont Care (Rants)

Stupid Middle School Crush

I AM SO RELIEVED

GUYS ITS OFFICAL

IM OVER THOMAS

I KNOW IT MAY SOUND MEAN

BUT GUYS IVE LIKED THIS GUY FOR OVER A YEAR

AND IM FINALLY OVER HIM

I REALIZED THAT IT WAS A STUPID MIDDLE SCHOOL CRUSH

AND I WOULD FIND ANOTHER FISH IN THE SEA

AND IT WAS JUST ONE BROKEN HEART CLOSER TO A HAPPY ENDING.

IT TOOK AWHILE

BUT I HAVE MOVED ON

TO ANOTHer blond headed human being that i shall refer to as Whiskers 2.0 for ironic reasons.

I've been debating about my feelings for Whiskers 2.0 since last year when i met them. (btw i figured out that i made up the feelings for Whiskers and i never really liked him, i just though that having feelings for him would distract me from my feelings for Whiskers 2.0). I finally just gave up and let my heart take over before we got off for break two weeks ago.

UGH

I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW

BLEH

anyways. so my mom texted me over break saying that one of the people that i have told my secret told their parents and is calling my mom a bad parent. i was mad at whoever was saying that. My mom wanted to know what the secret was, but i implied that i didnt want to tell her. Last night Beekachu and i slept in Aidan's room because our room was occupied. We stayed up late talking about my secret and how our mom got mad at Beekachu for not telling her. I felt so bad. then she said some things that i shall not speak till maybe later, and she made me rethink my entire life. I'm so confused about alot of things right now, and i just want it all to stop. I want alot of things to stop. I want the drama of everything to stop. I just want it to go back to when life wasnt so complicated and when i didnt feel everything i feel today.

so far Becca is the only one ive told who knows who Whiskers 2.0 is. I plan on keeping it like that. I just dont want to lose any friends or have people think of me differently because of this secret. Becca and i have a plan to ask everyone who knows if they have told their parents. Im not mad at them, i would be mad at their parents for saying that stuff to my mom and for wanting their kid to stay away from Becca and i just for the stupid secret i told them about me.

seriously guys i wanna tell you the secret but you guys would probably hate me or think of me differently even though it doesnt change me at all. i...i guess im just scared of everyone thinking of me differently, judging me and unfriending me. I've only told five people, six if you include Ethan guessing it correctly. that reminds me, i need to talk to him about it tomorrow.

and guys you need to listen to Madilyn Bailey's covers on YT. shes like...goals. i already have over 20 of her covers downloaded on my phone...seriously. shes all i listened to over break.

IDK IF IVE ALREADY RANTED ABOUT THIS BUT GUYS NATEWANTSTOBATTLE RELEASED HIS LAST FNAF SONG AND ITS AMAZING AND IM SAD BECAUSE ALL OF HIS FNAF SONGS ARE AMAZING AND I LOVE THEM AND I WAS LIKE SOBBING BECAUSE HE REFERENCED HIS OTHER FNAF SONGS IN THE ONE SONG AND I WAS LIKE UGHHHHH

My Thanksgiving break was pretty fun. i forgot what i did half the time. but yesterday we went to see The Phantom of the Opera at the Hobby Center downtown and it was INTENSE AND AMAZING.

so yeah.

thats basically it.

thank you, I am Farkle.......'s wife!

HA HURRRRRRRR