I Really Dont Care (Rants)

if you ever feel the slightest bit insecure, READ

Okay so this topic means something to me, because I was once in this sort if situation.

yes, you heard me. I once was insecure. Heck, I still am, but I still express myself. And I want you to know that if someone is putting you down, or taking your spirit away, keep your head up and shake it off. Those haters are only letting lies escape their lips. And they dont even realize they're doing something wrong until something horrible happens, like suicide.

last May, my grandma died. And at the same time, I was just figuring out about how Lauren hates me. I felt unwanted and useless. I never though I would've done something as stupid as I did, but I did. I cut myself. And I regret it. It only takes the pain away for a second, then you're off cutting again, only releasing pain for a minute, and up end up with scars that will never fade. I want you to think about what I'm about to say.

would your mom be okay with it? Would your friends? Would you truly be okay? I have two friends who are suicidal, and I pray for them every morning during the moment of silence at school. I pray for them to be okay, and let them live through their lives happily. They're both my best friends, and I really hope they'll be okay soon, I dont know what is do without them. I know that you're not okay even if you say, "I'm fine." because I once said that, and I really wasn't. I am now, though. If you don't believe that there's a reason to live, think about this: you should know that god only makes things happen for a reason. He made you happen. So you're here on earth for a reason. Dont waste your life wondering why you were born or if you would just die, because God has a plan for you, angel. He has a plan for all of us.

I felt lonely last May. Then I looked up and realized that I have friends who are there for me, and who check on me because they know I'm not okay. I have best friends who will lead the way and help me up if I fall. You do too. You just need to dust yourself off and open the door to reality to see that. There is always at least one person who loves you, if not more. And I know one of those people. Me. I care about everyone in the world. Big small, tall short, acne or not, happy or broken, real or fake smile, big or thin, good or bad. Anyone un the world I care about. Because I want everyone to live a happy life and to not waste it thinking about what you think you did wrong, when you really did nothing wrong.

haters are always just jealous or broken their selves. If they make a rude comment about you, dont say something rude back, that could hurt them just as much as they hurt you. Instead, maybe send them a compliment. I love everyone, and I wish that bullying didn't exist. But it dies, and I can't change that completely. But we can take the first step and stand up to bullies. Either if you're the victim or the by stander, step in and stand up. Dont believe what the haters say, that only gives them power.

okay so I just wanted to tell you guys that you are beautiful and worth it please never leave and if you feel lonely or insecure message or pm me. I will respond, I promise. Please, just promise me that you won't kill yourself tonight, tomorrow, never. You're here for a reason. Embrace who you are.

I am crazy.

I am weird.

I am awesome

I am proud.

I am inspired

I am brave.

I am broken.

I am insecure.

yet I am still....

who I am.