I Really Dont Care (Rants)

Guys...

Guys...

I'm not really as "social" or "amazing" as some of you may think I am. 

Honestly I'm just another teenage female trying to figure out why she's walking the face of this earth while trying to live her life to the fullest with the weirdest friends and conversations and once-in-a-lifetime opportunities that only come around once in a lifetime. I'm actually very anti-social at home and sometimes at school and I can be very smart and academic if I set my mind to it and focus enough. I could get all A's in all of my classes if I believed in myself. I actually just want to ge thtorugh my middle school years, pass through high school with a couple of scholarships, get into a great college with a good paying part-time job, have my books published and read worldwide and become a female Cory Matthews. 

I said I only have 3 sides before, but honestly I have more like 6 or 7. 

My out-going, weird, perky side

My excited, jubilant, thrilled side

My quiet, shy, anti-social side

My scared, petrified, nervous side

My confident, pleasant, strong side

My girly, feminine side

My fangirl side

My sad, lonely, depressed side

My dark side that no one will ever want to see but when it's out it's hard to put it back and calm me down because I will slit the person/object/anything's throat even if it doesn't have a throat, chuck it off the Empire State Building, stab it with a chainsaw in the face, and stomp on it and cuss up a storm if I have to. Yet that only happens when someone online or in person pisses me off to the point when I explode. And I will explode if I have to. Usually it only happens when I'm alone though. I've never really exploded in public or at school before.