I Really Dont Care (Rants)

white paint

{I'm bigger than my body, 

I'm colder than this home,

I'm meaner than my demons, 

I'm bigger than these bones.

And all the kids cried out, 

"Please stop, you're scaring me,"

I can't help this awful energy,

God damn right you should be scared of me,

who is in control?}

Control, Halsey 

so yesterday i didnt have school but i worked on my costume for DI (COMPETITION IS IN 11 DAYSSS) and ive done most of it but the rest of the team is helping me finish it cause its one of our two team choice elements and im really proud of it 

and so Beekachu's DI team came over yesterday to work on their set (in three hours they only covered each other with paint and painted on small part of a cardboard box) and they had to wash their hands upstairs and i was sitting on the floor in the gameroom upstairs and so Joe Nathan decides its a fabulous idea to come up to me and smear water ALL OVER MY FACE. THREE TIMES. AND THEN HE SPLASHES ME WITH HANDSFUL OF WATER AND LUCKILY MY COSTUME DIDNT GET WET BUT STILL UGH 

and then later on i needed a glue gun so i went out to the garage to see if their team had it and they didnt so as i was going to go back inside, Joe Nathan takes my arm, squeezes alot of white paint into his palm and SLATHERS MY ARMS IN IT LIKE THEY WERE COMPLETELY WHITE WHITER THAN ME AND IM A FUCKING PALE BITCH HERE AND I HAD TO STOP WORKING ON MY COSTUME FOR A BIT TO TAKE A SHOWER AND IT TOOK FOREVER TO SCRUB IT ALL OFF OF MY ARMS AND I WAS IN THERE FOR AT LEAST 30 MINUTES SCRUBBING MY ARMS DOWN TO GET IT ALL OFF BUT I STILL DIDNT GET IT ALL MAN I WAS PISSED AT HIM 

so Saturday was my brother Aidan's bday and so i went to tell him goodnight for his bday and he says "you suck dicks" and im like "im not into that" and hes like "then pussy?" and im like "sure..." (i meant that in the way that i like girls, not whatever youre thinking) and so he looks at me weirdly and asks "youre a lesbian?" and im like "yup" and at first he didnt believe me and i say "dude seriously im not kidding im gay as hell" and he just stares at me strangely. that is how i came out to my 12 year old brother.

out in the carline i said something idk what but Aidan replies with "go suck a dick" and since im gay im like "you know im not into that stuff" and i turn to Ethan and say "he does too" and Ethan's like "yup i do" and Aidan didnt really speak after that lol idk how hes taking this whole thing and hopefully he doesnt tell my dad cause idk how he'll react...he apparently made fun of Meme when she came out to him, and im kinda scared to see what happens if he knows i dont like guys...well at least he wouldnt have to be worried about me getting a boyfriend lol

im literally obsessed with Halsey its not even funny

i need money so i can buy band shirts and stuff 

i need the bad shirts 

id wear them everyday if i could honestly

okay guys i think im gonna post a short story book later tonight. would you all read them?? cause if you dont i wont post it. but as soon as i get my hands on the flashdrive that has my honorable mention short story on it ill post it too. i have like six other short stories ive written over the weekend. i need to edit them though. and the one that made Shamari cry will be on there too xD 

so thats that

DI REGIONAL COMPETITION IS IN ELEVEN DAYS 

ELEVEN 

AHHHH

WHERE DID TIME GO

i listen to strange music 

seriously tho

have you read any of the lyrics i post at the beginning of every rant????

if you havent u a lazy ass bitch but it ok i am 2

my grammar on point 

#whitegirlrevolution 

i have issues. 

okay thats all 

bai

HA HURRRRR

I-G-G-BYE

POUND IT 

the truth will keep you whole.