I Really Dont Care (Rants)

Lev got that boom boom pow

{God, I wish I never spoke, now I gotta 

wash my mouth out with soap.}

~Melanie Martinez, Soap

Idk what to title this so i just went with a reference to Unwind.

Honestly that is my life af. 

I'm obsessed with Melanie Martinez guys. i now only listen to Fall Out Boy, Panic! At the Disco, Daughtry, Sabrina Carpenter and Melanie Martinez. yeah, ive got plenty of other songs on my phone, but i havent listened to any others for the longest time. (btw the song above is Soap by Mel and i cannot stop listening to it) i seriously need the Crybaby album. i do. 

So something really bizarre went down in crafts today...so this guy named Walker was teasing this guy named Elijah telling him to get a haircut for some reason. Walker wouldnt stop, and so abruptly, Elijah starts to fucking cuss Walker out after pushing him down. the entire room fell silent in time to hear Elijah shout "FUCK YOU, BITCH ASS NIGGA" and then he stormed out of the room and im pretty sure he was written up. idk if thats the real story, i wasnt paying attention until the room fell quiet cause Dani and i were talking. 

oh and a few days ago (Friday night, i believe), Ethan and i were texting about what we thought was after life and it got deep....(Italics, Ethan...normal, me)

What do you believe comes after death

Honestly I believe that after we die, we're brought into a whole new universe that may or may not be heaven or hell, but there we live for eternity in the world we've dreamed of or feared of for the rest of our dead lives. 

Hhhhhmmmmmm

You had that ready

What do you believe comes after death? and yes, I think about of alot of things cause my thoughts usually consume my free time. 

Try to comprehend nothingness

???? Like an endless path of darkness

nothing. no air no breathing no sight no feelings

no thinking 

no...

...wow. what a nothing that would be.

Existing. 

So like it exists but we can do nothing in the nothingness

Except we dont even know we're nothing because there is no longer anything

Oh shit...that would be peaceful yet troubling at the same time. 

Except you wouldnt know its peaceful or troubling cause there is literally nothing

You wouldnt be there

Wow...thats hard to comprehend...

Yet I understand it. 

Its technically impossible to comprehend because the fact of nothing is impossible because you want to feel  it just dark and blank but with the nonexistent of a universe is

Blasphemising 

How long have you been thinking about this

To long 

*too

but 

what if

what if there was nothingness

?

When we die we instantly go back to the most dangerous scene you've studied or experienced and relive it constantly

See I've thought about that before but like it's too horrifying to actually think it could be true. But after awhile you would just get over it and get bored. 

True

 Honestly that got so fucking deep its as deep as the ocean. But seriously. What do you think comes after death? 

So in English we're learning about World War II and the Holocaust, and it all just makes me want to cry, punch a wall and just pull out my hair at the same time. Because part of humanity actually killed over 11 million people globally, and approx 6 million Jews, 1.5 million kids. I just hate that people actually had the guts to do that. If I could go back in time and ask anyone anything, the one question I would ask would be "Why?" Because i feel like that one word would answer most of my questions about humanity and earth itself. Why did you do what you did? Why did you make that choice? Why would you come up with any idea like that? Why? Because even though dictators like Hitler did many bad things, they still deserved to have an opinion, a statement that explains it all. If I could go back in time and do just that, I would. I want to know why Hitler had this burning hatred for Jews. Why he had to kill over 11 million of them to get a stupid point across. And if you really think about it, all of the things like the Holocaust were because a dictator wanted more power. Think about it. If you look back and think about everything like the Holocaust, it was more than likely because the dictator wanted more power. Power gets the best of people, and if someone has too much of it, they go insane with it, not being able to handle it. 

And once again, Ms. Schmidt has blown me away with her words: "That's why we learn about history; so time doesn't repeat itself." and that is going to be my motto if i decide to be a history teacher. it's true, though. seriously. 

And I laughed way too hard at this text post on Tumblr 

Connor: from now on, we will be using code names. You can address me as Eagle One. 

Connor: Ariana, code name: Been there, Done that. 

Connor: Risa is Currently Doing That

Connor: Una is it Happened Once in a Dream

Connor: Hayden is If I had to Pick a Dude. 

Connor: Lev is....Eagle Two.

Lev: Oh thank God. 

MY TEARS 

Anyways thats basically all for now. 

I-G-G-BYE

HA HURRRR 

The truth will keep you whole.