I Really Dont Care (Rants)

why

{I'm headed straight for the castle, 

they wanna make me their queen,

and there's an old man sitting on a throne there

saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean.

I'm headed straight for the castle,

they've got the kingdom locked up,

and there's an old man there sitting on a throne there

sayin' I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut,

straight for the castle.}

Castle, Halsey

so...school was average, yet after DI things took a sharp turn for the worst. 

in first period algebra we're doing group work and i was with Google and Thomas and theyre really smart dudes and i feel completely and utterly useless in this group cause im dumb as shit i cant even remember the smallest things. Google kept on having to help me with problems and ugh i feel dumb cause i am. i really didnt want to intrude or make things hard for them but Google offered to have me in their group and i had a fucking plan but that backfired then my other plan backfired so i stood there for a moment like a lost dumbass that had no group and so thats how that shit went down. i try to do the problems, and i usually having the values right, but the positive/negative symbol wrong. so i guess i can do it if i try. but i feel bad cause i didnt want to intrude or cause trouble. i really hope i didnt.

and okay so i realized something while being random with my freetime: i'm not homosexual, but im pansexual. the exact definition from google is "not limited in sexual choice with regard to biological sex, gender or gender identity" which is like a stronger form of bisexuality, yet stronger. just had to point that out guys. lol sorry if i wasted ur time on that paragraph.

so DI competition is in THREE FUCKING DAYS and Becca's team isnt holding up so well. we had a plan to preform each of our skits in front of the other team, yet they're not ready at all. they hardly have a set, the only one who knows their lines is Becca, they havent done a single instant challenge together as a whole team that was good yet when they have, its usually yelling over one another and saying "no" which is like forbidden in the IC world. Becca's stressed and upset to the point where she got into the car after practice crying. and its because they dont do anything at all but mess around. thats why tomorrow im gonna try to talk to everyone i can thats on her team. i need to open their eyes so that they realize this is real and their time is literally almost up. i need to slap some sense into their childish minds so they focus. i am determined to do this and i will not stop until they open their eyes to reality. im determined, and when im determined, theres no going back. whatsoever. i do what i gotta do no matter what. and thats exactly what i plan to do tomorrow so they could maybe get some shit done cause i hate seeing Becca so upset and i want to be there for her yet i dont know what to say or do to comfort her. but she shouldnt be feeling this way in the first place. i hate seeing people this upset, it makes me wanna cry for them.

and guess whAT

MY TEAM DID A RUN THROUGH IN 7 MINUTES AND TWO SECONDS AND ITS AMAZING CAUSE THE MAX IS 8 MINUTES AND TO HAVE THAT LOW OF A TIME IS REALLY GOOD. WE ALL LITERALLY SCREAMED WITH JOY. 

and the "my crush doesnt like me back" club (MCDLMB) was founded by Nalani and consists of me, Kayla and herself. cause its true. i dont even know if 2.0 is into girls or not but i doubt it and it frustrates me. oh well after this year im off to high school and i wont have to worry about feelings for her. yet what if i meet another girl i develop feelings for??? would she be Whiskers 3.0 or what lol. 

thats all for now. 

HA HURRRRR

POUND IT

I-G-G-BYE

the truth will keep you whole.