I Really Dont Care (Rants)

this may be deep

I don't know if you guys knew this but I actually have big plans/goals for my future. I may act like I don't care, but I really do because what I do now is effecting the future. Even just writing this rant. I really want to get into a good college (I think I'm narrowing it down to Sam Houston, NYU and a few others) so I can become an author and (believe it or not) a teacher. I wanna be the person who gets to watch kids grow and learn more about their world. I wanna be the one to teach them all they need to know about facing the world and everything they'll overcome. I wanna be the real Cory Matthews, and show teenagers that there is a meaning behind every one of them and that they can choose their own path in life. For me, I'll take the one less traveled by. 

I want to get a great education so I can have my books published and become a certified teacher, probably in Klein. I want to stay the weirdo I am today, yet have more freedom and live my own life. I want to have two am conversations with my college room mate and tell stories about the drama in my middle school years. I want to look back on these days and say that I put use to my life. I want to make an impact on the world, and inspire others to do the same. 

When I was in South Carolina this past June/July, we had gone to church, and I was swinging on the swings (gently, you know I'm petrified of swings) and I looked over to the barren road. No car zoomed by and the houses seemed unoccupied. I was thinking deeply and I had gotten lost in thought. What if one day I just ran off? What if I never looked back and set out to explore the world? What if I run off and never come back to home, or even find a new home? The more I thought about it, the more I was eager to do it. I would've just ran away, far into the woods across the street, but I needed to get back home safely, so I used everything in me to stop myself from sprinting over there. I really want to run away and travel the world someday. Anyday now would be great. Maybe with my best friend or someone I care about. I want to learn about different cultures and languages and their history. I want to experience the life of other countries' people. I literally used everything in me to stop myself from running off, and let me tell you, it was hard. Way harder than you think. 

I want people all over the globe to be able to read my writing and experience the words and adventures and just soak in all of the details to know exactly what I was portraying. And it'd be so much fun to do a lesson on one of my own books, wouldn't it? Like, "Alright guys, now, today we'll start reading 'To The Moon and Back' by me, your very own English teacher!" I would have so much fun! Everything I write has a hidden meaning behind it that I've complexly thought out and planned. I have so many notes and storylines and characters etc of novel planning, my basket is full and way unorganized. I want teens and young adults to remember that they're all here for a reason, that we've all got a purpose, we all stand for something on this earth. As long as we live, we'll be alright. We depend on each other as humans, yet we refuse to admit it. We have depended on one another ever since the dawn of time. And that is one thing that'll never change. 

Okay so I'll rant some more later tomorrow, but I've got to get to sleep. I have an algebra test tomorrow, and I really need to focus. I need to keep my grades up to make sure I apply for the right college. 

Stay beautiful, weirdos. Ily 

byeeeee