I Really Dont Care (Rants)

Grayson's Party/Halloween...

so um...something is happening....

So Friday night was Grayson's party (which i told you nothing about) and alot happened....Maya was there (OMB Adam, Becca's ex was there and it was really awkward since Beccas new bf was there too) and it started off as a costume party and we were all dancing but then Grayson got in the pool and so did Nayla and everyone started getting in but Maya and I jumped from the edge into the main part, not the heated part and so we literally froze our toes off jumping in and finally the heated part heated up enough to get in and we warmed up and we kept on jumping back in like wild people. Maya told me she likes 21 too....I hung out with mainly Maya and i think a girl named Marisa or Shelby i honestly dont remember...i told them that i may have small feelings for a guy (codename: Whiskers; dont ask how i got that) but idk...you think being the master of tombstone the bull is hard? its nothing compared to being the master of your feelings. hahahahahahaa i JUST QUOTED TEXAS i need help...ill update on that later. anyways, Mason and Trey were there along with Kayla B, and so i honestly dont know what happened, but all of the sudden Mason threw a football at Trey's head and it hurt him and i heard that they were choking each other before that or something idk...but like then Mason left and Becca snapped at Trey to the point that it took Kayla and I to hold her back from breaking his neck. Then she stormed off and Kayla and I ran after her and she snapped at me for trying to help her. i walked back to the heated part and sat with Maya, Marisa/Shelby and Ethan while they tried to calm me down. i was on the verge of tears, i was so worried and i still am. Becca like nearly cried and ran up to Grayson's room...i wanted to help her but eveyrone held me back. she keeps on rejecting that something happened but i know something did. Trey was crying, Becca snapped and i feel like something big is changing...

except i dont want anything to change. i like the way things are. 

anyways, Lara and Thomas are back together. and Becca is watching Thomas so if he hurts her she will snap his neck...but thats what Becca and I do when our friends get boyfriends: we watch them and if they hurt our friends, we snap their neck until they bleed out and then burry them alive *innocent smile*. 

i found new video editing software and yeah so i was working on a Rucas video from the moment i woke up and it took me until like four or five to figure it all out and then the proGRAM JUST DECIDES TO SHUT DOWN AND UNDO EVERYTHING I DID AND MAKE ME START ALL OVER WITH IT ALL but it actually didnt take nearly half as long as it did the first time. but still i had to do it all over and it took me forever.  sorry about the watermark that appears every few seconds...i hate it too...maybe itll be gone soon, hopefully. or i find a better software without a watermark. that'll be my goal tomorrow afternoon: to find a watermarkless video editing software. 

but i still think that the video overall turned out nice

so my mom cunfuzzled me...because i really wanna go on both Washington DC trips, but i can only go on one. the Jr. NYLC would require a project and more stress, yet id still be able to possibly get a scholarship. but the school trip is more free, fun and relaxed. plus id be with my friends and do so much more even though its only one or two days shorter. plus since im a American History dork, i'd have more fun visiting the places and stuff. so idk which one to chose. 

seriously guys im a HUGE American History dork. no doubt about it. i got a 100 on the American Revolution test and could answer each question without even thinking about it. i love American history. its my favorite thing to learn about in school basically. 

oh and im ready to chuck my flour baby out the window. i mean i dont even know how i was so excited for this project in the first place...a baby is way too heavy and too much to work around i just wanna chuck it out a window. but then id fail and id be a freaking mess because ive never failed before and itd kill my entire life plan and itd just be bad.  

thats all for now. ill update you guys on everything that happens relating to Grayson's party. bye!

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