I Really Dont Care (Rants)

Paris

{There will be multiple typos because I'm updating from my phone. And the edit above is my meh }
So last night on the AMAs, idk who it was, but she sang a beautiful song that originated from France in honor of 11/13. I was sobbing because of it. I couldnt stop thinking about how much violence like the recent attacks in Paris have affected our world and how it has scarred the people. I really do wish that none of it even excited in the first place. That the entire world could live in peace without war, without fights or arguments or conflicts. Without bullying or abuse, terrorism, etc. I wish it was all... demolished. I wish none of it bad been created.  But God made every single bit of it happen for a reason I shall never know of. I would t judge His choices, but I will try to stop the violence that people feel the need to cause. But what they don't realize is that their actions harm others permantately, whether it be physically, mentally or emotionally. So many people were crying at the AMAs because of the woman's performance. They most likely knew victims of the attacks is what I'm assuming. Either way, one attack can shake up the soul of the entire world. I just want everyone in Paris to know that I wish the US had sent troops over to help, but Im not president, so I'm not authorized to make that decision. Nethertheless, if anyone is in need of comfort, I'm all ears and arms and lips, if you understand that.
Here's a random question: if you could ask God one question, what would it be and why? (Please comment below). I honestly think mine would be "Why is there violence in this world?" Because I just want all of the hatred,  wars, attacks, etc to stop and be explained. I want to hear God's reasoning for all of the violence. I want to know if I can do anything to prevent it. If my question wasn't that, it'd be "Why?" It basically covers everything i need to ask Him. Why did you create violence? Why did people have to go about thwir problems with harm? Why do people want to hurt others so badly it leads to bombings and full blown terrorist attacks? Why was violence even created in the first place? Id want to know so much and only when I have those questions answered will my life be complete. But I won't be alive to know, so I guess I'm stuck living with my absurd inferences.
I have a burning flame inside of me that wants to do something about the violence. But my mouth won't let me. Neither will my mind. My soul knows I can do something, but my mind and mouth refuse to do so. U til then, I hope my words will come out on ways understandable for everyone and spread to people who need to hear them. I want people who think about causing violence to hear what I have to say.
Violence is never rhe answer. It only causes people harm and scars others for eternity. You can never take back what you've done once it's done, that's just life. But please, think about what you're doing before you do it. It may end peoples lives and cause the globe to break out into a deep, spiraling depression. Paris is an example. I'm scarred that I was actually alive when this happened. I'm worried and praying for the people of Paris every time I get the chance to. I'm wounded by the thought of peoe actually doing some thing like this. I'm burned by the flame of violence, even though it hasnt touched me. The flame has burnt oeople globally, and nobody can take it back. People lost loved ones that day. People lost their lives that day. I lost my trust for anyone that day. I was sitting on the couch with Avery and my mom waiting for my step dad to get out of the bathroom so Avery and I could go to Solo and Ensemble. My mom asked me if I knew what happened in Paris, and I said no. She proceeded to explain the tragic events and I listened as my heart shattered with every word. I knew people we're capable of these th I ngs, but I didn't think they'd attempt it after what happened on 9/11. I hoped that deep down they would find it in their souls to stop and just apologize. But not everyone on this earth can be perfect. nobody can be. Were all imperfect beings of God's creation and we're still trying to figure out how to live on this wounded earth. Violence is what wounds us. Thats why I want everything to just stop.
I hope that my words will help people and maybe change some peoples minds. What happened in Paris will forever be a scar in my soul. I will not forget it. I pray for everyone on earth, and hope that they live to see their tomorrow. I pray that violence will stop and that peoe will realize it's no way to settle anything. That is mainly what I want to say. Thank you, I am Farkles wife.
~Lyssie.