I Really Dont Care (Rants)

moment of realization...

Hiya

sorry I haven't been updating this rant book I'm busy with Henry Danger....anyways...

THE CMAs WERE ON LAST NIGHT!!! EEEEEEE THOMAS RHETT SANG HIS SONG AND HUNTER HAYES PLAYED HIS GUITAR OH MEH GERD FANGIRL MOMENT CAUTION HOTNESS OVERLOAD!

okay so anyways...

I had a moment of realization yesterday...

so in D.I we were going to focus on trees and our schools green house, and we got it approved through our principle and the science department, but it would die over the summer and that's just a waste of time and money, so we decided on a new topic: bullying.

we all basically cried because we have seen so many people online who want to commit suicide and who cut and I cried because I used to cut, and it was really sad because we all feel strongly about that topic. One of my friends is suicidal and tried to commit suicide last year, and I stayed with her for a whole class period talking her out of it, and she told me alot and we all cried. The next day, I waited by her bus stop for her, and I can't tell you how happy I was when she came off that bus, I just wanted to hug her forever. She did try but then she thought of me, and stopped. She knows I care.

okay what I realized.

when I was in the car after D.I, I told my mom about the topic changing. And I said "well I've never been bullied" but then my mom says "Well, the stuff ***** did to you classifies as bullying." and that's when I realized that I had been bullied. For years.

when I first read the stuff ***** said about me, I was mad, then I was sad, because I was hurt. I cried myself to sleep the next few days. She made up lies about me. She pretended to be someone else and said rude things to me, twice. She ignored me for days at a time, and just ditched me.

so, I guess I have some experience for D.I now...