I Really Dont Care (Rants)

bleh

i just finished a Maya video edit ;) im proud of myself because its actually pretty good.

anyways im still really cunfuzzled because the Jr National Young Leaders Conference (Jr.NYLC) is so professional and im here like dancing with purple cats and living over in Rileytown with Blinky the nun and the kissing bunny and puppy. like im too weird for this yet i really want to do it. this could be the opportunity i have been praying for to change my life and to change the world for the better. i will seriously be depressed if this chance slips out of my grasp.

i cant see enough information on the trip i'd go on because i dont have the login code, my mom does and shes sleeping, so ill wait until tomorrow to get it. but i looked at an estimated price for it and it's around $1.5k-$2.9k, which is only a quarter of what Beekachu had to pay to go on her trip to Europe, but it was a different continent and across an ocean and 19 days. mine is six days, in another state and across one or two rivers. not much compared to Beekachu's trip, but mine effects my future life/career more than hers will. i mean i could get scholarships from this! SCHOLARSHIPS!

seriously this is big and im sorta stressing out because this year i'm taking three high school credit classes, i have DI practice every week which will pile onto the work from all of my classes, I am CERTAINLY doing Region auditions this year because it effects which choir im put in in high school, i have solo and ensemble in 2 weeks, i want to go on the 8th grade Washington DC trip yet it costs more than the Jr.NYLC and to add the Jr.NYLC to it all, which contains another project and lots of fundraising and work, it's really stressful.

i have a feeling that im gonna have to choose between the two Washington DC trips, and honestly i'd choose the Jr.NYLC over the 8th gade trip anyday. the Jr.NYLC effects my future and is amazing to put on a resume and college applications and i could get scholarships and make amazing friends who may be hiding their weirdness just like i would. its something i really want to do yet i still have time to enroll, so ill be okay. in December (last enrollment day is Dec. 18) i can start panicking. but its still October, so im okay for now.

anyways im tired so im gonna go back to sleep. bye

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