I Really Dont Care (Rants)

#FluffyLlamaArmy

So the premier was AMAZINNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I WATCHED IT OVER AND OVER AND YEAH 

I've been repeating two songs today ("Fairytale" Sara Barellies, "Wildest Dreams" Taylor Swift) and literally it's all I've been listening to. I also printed out some more pictures for my fandom wall in my room which is basically printed pictures of the fandoms I'm in. Now one half is completely full and the other half is almost full. I love it so much I could stare at it for hours at a time. 

oh and I'm so excited for this week because DI tryouts are Thursday and Nalani and I have so many ideas (most of them may or may not include llamas) for the projects and sets and skits and all kinds of things. I'm really excited to find out what the project is about and what we have to do. I really want to be on the Project Outreach team again because I love making the world a better place, even if it's only a small impact, it can make a huge difference and I love being a part of that. I loved my team last year and we made so many amazing memories together, especially when we did team building things all together and got along. Like the Christmas skating party. And the Mixer at State. Horse back riding at Globals along with Dollywood even though the only roller coaster like ride I went on was the log ride. I feel like Globals was the bonding point for BESHNKL. We all walked away friends, and I'm glad it ended like that. Even though Becca and my mom and Ms. Turbay have a bad impression on BESH, I love them like they're my sisters. I see the good in them that they refuse to see. Plus they're all so creative and great with problem solving. 

I really hope we can do our project on gender equality because that's something I'm very passionate about, and I have a "few" ideas on that topic. Also abuse and labels/stereotypes. I've written out quite a few plans and ideas. Nalani and I are so excited it's ridiculous. 

And Hans is still calling me "Mason's girlfriend's sister" and I WANNA PUNCH HIM IN THE FACE. I HAVE A NAME AND IF YOU DONT KNOW IT, JUST ASK ME AND MAYBE I WONT PUNCH YOU AS HARD. Plus he always walks up to the people i stand with in the carline without Thomas who he usually stand by. Thomas only once actually walked over to my group, and that exact moment was when Becca and I's car pulled up. Talk about perfect timing. I'm not meaning to be rude, but I'm just really awkward around guys if I'm not really good friends with them like Braedon or Ethan. Sure, I talk to Mason, but he's not really my "friend." Grant is, though. He's in my tribe (#FluffyLlamaArmy) in English. but the awkwardness is ridiculous. I'm normally an awkward person. Unless it's with someone like Avery or Nalani who bring out a side in me that usually not many people see. But I have three sides: 1, sweet, kind, peaceful side. 2, funny, out-going, loud, weird side. 3, the dark side no one ever wants to see. The only people who bring out side 3 is the people on the internet or in real life that piss me off to the point I explode and want to cuss up a freaking storm in their evil little faces. 

But most adults call me a little angel. 

And what do you think it means when a guy calls you creative? 

Ethan and I are okay after I rejected him. Our friendship is still normal, and by normal I mean he takes my stuff and I try to get it back or I laugh at him becoming uncomfortable by the slightest thing. I didn't want to ruin that amazing friendship with a relationship that would last only a couple months. But everything's okay. 

okay...gIRL MEETS I AM FARKLE LITERALLY BROKE MY FEELS. I WATCHED IT REPEATEDLY AND EVERYTIME I SOBBED ON MY BED LIKE A MANIAC. IT JUST BROKE ME DUDES. I STILL SOB WHENEVER I WATCH IT BUT I LOVE IT AND CANT STOP WATCHING IT AND I NEED HELP I MAY HAVE A PROBLEM

But the next episode is when Riley and Maya go back in time and see Cory and Topanga when they were their age and when they first met. It looks so freAKING AMAZING AND I CANT WAIT I NEED TO SEE IT RIGHT NOW. I NEED TO SEE THE REST OF THE SERIES RIGHT NOW. JUST TELL ME WHO ENDS UP WITH WHO AND WHAT HAPPENS TO THE MAIN FOUR. THEN I'LL BE OKAY. MAYBE. 

I'm just rambling about random crap rn cause I'm freaking bored...usually I ramble on when I'm bored. Like i am right now. I just am so freaking bored. Maybe I should work on an update for my GMW fanfic....eh, I'm too lazy rn. I guess I'll rant some more about life. 

Avery and I are seriously (and creepily) so much like Riley and Maya. She's Maya, and I'm Riley. All we're missing is the rings, and we're gonna get those during the Christmas shopping we already have planned. but she's the best bad influence on me, and I'm a good influence on her. She has blonde hair, I have brown (well, used to). She comes from a broken family (well, I do too) but I have both parents with another. I have a huge crush on a guy, she hides it. She has trouble hoping for things, I have hope for things billions of miles away. We're always there for each other, even though we have one or two arguments. 

Anyways, I'm like literally almost falling asleep while typing this. Eh, I'll rant until 8, I guess. 

You'd be surprised at how much some people know about me. Yet no one on this earth knows EVERYTHING about me. They just know most of it, not all. I'd never tell anyone the full truth. Only myself. I only trust myself sometimes. Yet other times, I don't trust anyone, not even myself. Avery know most of the things about me, expect there's a few things that Avery doesn't know that Braedon and Mack know, but that's only because I feel like I can trust them with anything and they understand what I was going through. Avery doesn't know about any of it, though. Only them. Yet I can't see them at school until next year, and even then it'll be rare to see them since they're a grade ahead of me. But I know we'll live our lives as friends until we die, and we'll take the friendship to our graves. Same with Avery and Nalani and a whole bunch of other best friends of mine. I want to stay friends for the rest of our lives, not run away from each other. Even though we all might not go to the same college, there's always Skype and FaceTime and texting and calling and everything else in between. I think we'll all be just fine. 

anyways, my laptop is about to restart automatically so I'm gonna go. Rant later. 

Stay beautiful my weirdos. 

bye