Saved from the Dark (Galvez series #4)

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"Diyan nalang" Turo ko kay Saint nang makatulog si Velle sa kakaiyak. Saint told Velle how much she love our daughter and after that nakatulog na si Velle sa kakaiyak. Saint was crying too. We are all crying. Hindi ko alam na ganoon ang nararamdaman ni Velle. Tuwing nakatingin siya sa labas, ang akala ko gusto niya lang maglaro pero iba pala 'yon sakanya. 

Saint is staring at Velle while crying. I went closer to Saint and I hugged him from the back. Kung masakit saakin ay mas masakit 'yon para kay Saint na marinig ang lahat ng 'yon sa anak niya. I can't imagine his pain. 

"I'm sorry, Saint," I whispered. "It's all my fault. You can blame—"

"Shh," Humarap saakin si Saint at niyakap ako. "It's not your fault, and it will never be your fault. You did what you think is the best." He kissed my forehead.

 "There's nothing I can do, nangyari na, tapos na. If only I could bring back time pero nangyari na ang lahat. Let's not blame ourselves, wala na rin namang mangyayari kung magsisihan tayo. The important thing is that you and my daughter are here. Babawi ako sa lahat ng pagkukulang ko, Lavender. I'll make it up to you and to our daughter, I'll give you two the world. I'll give you everything just like the old times" 

Saint pressed our foreheads together. We're inches apart from each other. Habang patuloy na lumuluha at humihikbi. 

"I'm sorry," He whispered. "I'm sorry for making the stupid decision, Lavender" 

 "Sobrang sobra kong pinagsisihan lahat ng ginawa ko sa'yo. I almost kill myself. At that moment, I chose not to live anymore, I quit my life and, I don't want to live kasi para saan pa? You left me, you left me, and you will never come back. Anong purpose ng mabuhay pa ako kung walang ikaw sa tabi ko? I lost you and I lost myself too"

We're here on the balcony, and we're both looking at Makati's night lights. We're both crying hearing his story. He suffered a lot too. He went through a lot too. 

"'Wag na 'wag mo ng gagawin 'yon, ah? 'Wag mong babawiin ang buhay mo ng dahil lang saakin--"

"Lang? Hindi ka lang. You are my life. I told you so many times that I will die for you. If you think no one will die for you, then I will. Kung mayroong isang tao na mamatay pag nawala ka, ako 'yon. I can't live without you, Lavender. I hope you are aware of that," He said with his serious, deep voice.

"Kung namatay ka noong araw na 'yon, paano si Velle? Habang buhay na puro tanong yung isip niya, habang buhay ka niyang hihintayin at hahanapin. Habang buhay siyang magagalit sa'yo. At habang buhay kong sisihin ang sarili ko. Baka ikamatay din kita, Saint Trevor" Nanginginig ang boses ko. 

"Si Velle, I didn't know that she felt that way, hindi ko alam na hinihintay ka niya. I didn't know that she wanted to see you, I didn't know that she was looking for you... Kung alam ko lang, if only I knew, noon pa bumalik na ako" Saint hugged me when I started crying again. "Kahit lumuhod at magmakaawa ako sa'yo mapatawad mo lang ako, gagawin ko."

"You don't have to. Just come back to me, and I will accept you with all my heart, Lavender. I love you so much. I love you and still you." Saint lifted up my face, and he kissed my forehead. 

"I love you too, Saint," I said. "I still love you, Saint. Natakot lang ako pero mahal pa rin kita" Saint smiled at me. Hindi siya nagsalita o sagutin ang sinabi ko. He just smiled at me.

"I love you, Saint" Ulit ko. "Mahal pa rin kita"

"I know," He then smirked. Saint pulled me closer to him, and he started kissing me softly. The kiss that I haven't tasted in a long time. His soft intimate kiss that I missed. And I never imagined that he would kiss me like this again. I miss him so much.