We barely wait until the car doors close to begin discussing the place. Jimmy starts off the conversation enthusiastically.
"What do you think?" He says with a huge grin.
"I love it! It seems perfect, plenty of space but not huge, good price, AMAZING landlord and great rules! Plus we won't have to change too much when decorating as the colour theme is great too. I absolutely love it, Jimmy! What do you think?" I blurt out my words happily.
"Exactly the same! I think it's perfect for us, everything seems really nice. Sure, we'll have to make some adjustments for accessibility but not too much and it'll be easy enough, plus she seems great with everything we need to add too." I smile as he shares his opinion on the place.
"So... I know we normally think about it for longer but..." I look up at him hopefully. He takes his eyes away from the road momentarily to respond.
"I think yes. And I don't think that'll change," he says firmly.
"I agree. I think we should take it. We'll let everyone know at home first but if they all agree, I think we should message her tonight and accept it," I say gladly. I'm so excited already, I can't believe we may have found the perfect place for us.
When we get home, everyone is waiting for us to fill them in. Both Sam and Jack are sat on the sofa watching TV and Maya comes running downstairs from her room to ask how it's going. The TV is paused and we sit down, telling them all about the place and what we think.
"That sounds absolutely perfect!" Sam agrees with Jack instantly. Maya nods.
"Yeah, I think it sounds cool!" She chimes in.
"We do too!" I say.
"Well, you going to take it?" Jack asks. "You'd be crazy not to!" I laugh.
"Yeah, we'll take it!" I say, holding Jimmy's hand.
"Well, you better send her a message! And get ready because we're going out to dinner to celebrate!" Jimmy grabs his phone out of his pocket and unlocks it.
"Alright, I'll message now!" I kiss him before standing up.
"I'm going to go and get ready before we leave, I'll just get a change of clothes and some makeup on and fix my hair," I say. I walk into our bedroom and close the door, sitting down on the bed and heaving a sigh of relief. After a moment alone to breathe, I quickly grab what I need. I choose my corset top I got a couple of weeks back plus some new black jeans. I pick up my makeup bag, handbag and the carrier bag hidden behind it inside my drawer, quickly heading upstairs where I close and lock the door. I undress to my underwear before picking up the carrier bag and sitting on the toilet. My stomach is flipping but nowhere near as bad as it was this morning. I pull the small blue and white box out of the carrier bag and stare down at the writing on it anxiously.
"Rapid response pregnancy tests X2"
I know I can't be. I mean, I'm on the pill! I take it every single day exactly on time. I've never missed one in the years I've been taking it. But what else explains how I've been feeling? The nausea in the morning, secretly throwing up my breakfast against my own will, my POTS is getting worse again, I'm bloated and tired all the time, my fucking boobs hurt so bad and I've had some spotting for the first time in forever. I open the box and take out a test, quickly doing it before putting it back in the wrapper inside the sink. I flush the toilet and ignore it whilst getting dressed. It takes me three minutes to get fully clothed, I know I can check it now but I can't. I can't do it. So instead I begin doing my makeup. It's been ten minutes once that's done and I should check it, I have to check it. But fuck I am so scared of what it could say. What if I am pregnant? How will my body handle it? And how will my mind? What if I go crazy again, what if I relapse with my drinking or hurt myself, that could hurt a baby... And what will Jimmy say? Will he even want it? Sure, I could get an abortion but what if he wants me to keep it? And is that what I want? I'm pro choice, I always am but I've heard it can be so hard on the mental health and I also don't know if I'd want to do it, do I want to be a Mum? Would I even be a good mum?
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Problem Kid
Fiksi Remaja[NEW CHAPTERS RANDOMLY RELEASED] ⚠️⚠️18+ due to mature themes⚠️⚠️ Everleigh has never had a normal life. After losing her father as a young teenager, she fell into the painful routine of self harm and eating disorders, repeatedly checking in and out...
