Problem Kid

Chapter 12

I open my eyes, noticing Summer's face inches from mine. I just stare into her round, warm eyes which are full of happiness and excitement. Unlike mine which are emotionless and blank. I roll over, burying my face back into my pillow however i freeze when someone speaks.

"I know it can be hard to leave your family again. It's going to be ok though. We are here to help you," I stay facing away from Jessie.

"Ok," she gently reaches over to me, stroking my back. I flinch away and her hand is removed.

"I'm sorry," i shake my head.

"It's ok," my eyes well up with tears again. The only person i want to be comforting me right now is Jimmy...

"How long was i out for?" I gulp, my tears returning to my eyes.

"About 20 minutes. You have 15 more left until dinner. Tell you what, how about we put your posters and stuff up? Make this place feel a bit nicer?" I nod, smiling weakly and sitting up. I rub my eyes tiredly before swinging my legs off the bed and slowly rising to my feet. i feel slightly dizzy as i hadn't eaten in a while however i wasn't about to pass out or anything so i began to move towards my case, allowing the feeling to slowly fade away. First, i pick up Summer's dog bed and shake all the contents inside it onto the bed. I place the fluffy brown fabric cushion beside my bed, up against the wall, putting the water and food bowls beside it. I fill the water bowl with water from her flask and send her to it. she happily gulps down half a bowl before settling in her bed. As Jessie watches, smiling, i take off her vest and ruffle her fur, throwing the red item onto the bed.

"You two are so cute. How long have you had her for now?" i inform her that it's been a couple of years and tell her how i trained her in australia as i place all her toys in the corner of the room. I sit myself on the edge of the bed for a moment, catching my breath before taking Summer's huge bag of food and placing it beside the toys along with her vest, leash and my waist harness. All of her other items, including poop bags, training pads, washing stuff and more are placed in the bottom of the 4 drawers.

"I have read your file so i know all about your conditions and stuff. Must be hard?" I shrug.

"I guess it's just life," She nods gently.

"Life is a mug," we laugh, agreeing.

"You want me to sort the clothes? I'll let you stick up all the posters. I put some blu-tac on the end of the bed," i thank her, taking the pack and taking out my pile of posters and magazine ckippings. I begin putting my 10 Black Veil Brides posters on the largest empty wall behind my bed. i stare at the 5 group photos and the 5 individual ones of all the boys, smiling. Next, I take out 12 P!ATD posters. Most are of Brendon Urie however i have a few of Ryan Ross. I still want him back, even though it's 2018. BRING BACK RYAN! i slowly stick them up as Jessie works her way through my suitcase.

"What made you want to work here?" Jessie pauses for a moment before continuing.

"I'm sorry, if you dont want to answer-" i flush red, feeling guilty for asking.

"No, it's ok. It just hurts still. Well, I have a younger sister, Elisa. She was 5 years younger than me. Just gone 4 years ago, when I was 19 and she was 14, she lost her battle to depression. She has bulimia and was a self harmer. She commited suicide 4 years and 5 weeks ago today. When I lost her i felt so confused. How could someone so perfect and happy be so broken? how didn't we notice before it was too late? How did nobody help? I wanted to help people like her. Save lives like hers should have been saved. I know she'd be proud if she could see me now," I see her fighting tears and walk up to her, putting down the two posters left in my hands and gently hugging her. i hated physical contact but i guessed she needed it and put up with it for a few seconds before gently pulling away.