"You did great, Everleigh! I'm proud of you. Okay, I need to go sort out some things but I'll come back to see you before you get discharged, okay?" I nod and thank Marie and she leaves. As soon as I'm alone, I slowly get myself out of bed and pick myself some clean clothes and take my toiletries bag into the bathroom with me. As soon as I shut and lock the doors, I throw all of my belongings onto the floor and head over to the toilet. Guilt instantly consumes me however I have to do this. I can't cope with how much I've eaten, I feel sick. I get down onto my knees as my eyes begin to water. I sigh, resting my elbows on each side of the toilet bowl. My forehead rests in my hands and I sigh. I have to be quick before someone comes to check on me and figures out what I'm doing and so I do the one thing I swore to myself I'd never do and began the horrible process of emptying my stomach.
Once I'm finally done, I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand. I feel so disgusting and the guilt is consuming me but deep inside of my, my eating disorder is sighing in pure relief and happiness. As I stand myself up, my legs shake violently underneath me and I have to grab onto the sink area to keep myself standing. My head bows down and I focus on taking some deep breaths until the dizziness fades and I'm able to stand upright. I quickly flush the toilet and turn the tap on, washing my hands quickly before grabbing my toiletries bag as the cool water rushes down the sink. I pull out my toothbrush and toothpaste, wetting the bristles before squeezing out a thick layer of minty fresh toothpaste. I brush my teeth as fast as I can before moving into my face. I unlock the door so staff can see I'm safe and begin to wash yesterday's makeup off of my face. Next, I use face scrub to clear my pores and finally turn the tap off so I can pat my face dry with a hospital towel. I turn around and sigh in annoyance when I realise I've forgotten my makeup bag. I rub my aching forehead as I head out of the bathroom to go and get it. I walk back into my room and jump at the sight of Marie standing by the door.
"Shit, you scared me! How long have you been there?" I laugh awkwardly to hide my panic. What if she heard me?
"Not long. Whatcha doing in there?" She asks, raising an eyebrow. I pick at one of my nails and speak.
"Just brushing my teeth, cleaning my face and getting myself dressed and ready to go home, why?" I say, keeping my voice as level as I can. I feel my hand twitch.
"Okay, that's fine. I just came to say that we've got all your discharge papers ready and there's a new prescription for your meds and forasips written up. Speaking of meds, I know it's a little later than normal but I'll have them brought here by another nurse in a moment, okay?" I nod and thank her.
"Once I'm dressed can someone take me downstairs to toilet Summer and for a smoke please?" Marie replies after a moment of thinking.
"Yeah that should be okay. I think I can take you in about 15 mins if that's okay?" She asks and I nod. Summer has only just woken up anyway, I can hear her lapping up water from out of her bowl behind me. I thank Marie and she leaves. I grab my phone from my bed along with my makeup bag, chains, bracelet bag, hairbrush, body spray and deodorant before heading back into the bathroom and leaving the door open. I turn my phone on, reading the time which is 8.20 before going onto Spotify. I ignore my notifications and instead shuffle my "Rage" playlist. The first song to come on is I'm Yer Dad by GRLwood and I instantly smile, singing along as I slowly brush my hair. It only takes a moment before I begin do my makeup. I do the same as yesterday, not bothering too much about details and focusing more on hiding my ghastly grey skin and dead eyes. It doesn't take long for me to finish. Once I'm done, I close the bathroom door and get myself dressed into my simple but comfortable outfit, making sure to move my contraband over into my new bra.
Comfy boxers, not so comfy bra, black socks, black ripped skinny jeans with some black and white checked patches over some of the rips, a thin white sleeping with sirens tank top and black Demonia Lovesick Trinity Boots. Next, I begin loading up on accessories. I carefully put on a black leather choker which has spikes sticking out around it and chains dangling from them. A single silver loop hangs on the front. It semi hides my neck plaster which makes me feel a little better. Next, I begin to fill my lower arms up with my rubber bracelets. Most of the them are band merch bracelets but a few are just plain or patterned too. Once I'm done with those, I take out my chains. I attach some spikes and long chains to the side of my jeans between two of the belt loops before slipping a black studded belt. I tighten it around my waist and grin with happiness as I realise the clasp finally reaches my goal belt hole that I'd stabbed in myself a few months ago. I bite my lip to stop myself from yelping with joy. Instead, I focus on more accessories. I slide on two black and white kandi bracelets, one on each wrist. That's the body jewelry done, now it's time for some piercing changes. I dig into my toiletries bag until I find my small zipper purse where my all piercing bars, tapers, plugs and hoops reside along with my spare piercing cleaning ointment. I empty everything out onto a towel and slowly begin taking out all my piercings which takes a few minutes because of how many there are.
On both ears, I have 22mm ear tunnels, my other 2 lobe piercings, orbitals, helixes and 3 cartilages on each side.
On my left ear I have a double industrial, rook, diath and forward helix.
On the right I have a tragus, anti helix, flat cartilage, and outer conch.
On my face I have sharkbites, tongue, septum, both sides of my nose, double bridge, jestrum and smiley.
Once all of my silver jewelry is out, I clean all of the piercing sites before quickly rushing to put in all of the new ones. Black rings for the sharkbites, black skull tongue bar, black spiked septum, black studs on each nostril connected by a small black chain across my nose, black double bridge (the top bar 1 gauge bigger and slightly longer than the bottom one), black jestrum bar and black rings and bars in all of my ear piercings except for the double industrial which now has a spider connecting the two. I finish off my putting in my matching black 'Fuck You' ear plugs. Once I've put everything else away and paused my music, I look up at my reflection and grin before heading back into the room where I stuff all of my belongings back into my bag except my phone of course.
I quickly throw down some food for Summer which she happily munches on her wet and dry mix. It only takes her 5 minutes to finish and by the time she's done, Marie is back with my meds.
"Here you go. You look great, Ev! Loving the outfit!" She smiles at me. I notice her eyes stop at my arms as I lift the paper cup of pills to my mouth. I look away, knocking them back and taking the water from her hand to flush them down. Once I'm done, I look back up at Marie who is looking away. She stays quiet and I feel relived that she's not about to lecture me.
"I'll go let the others know we're going outside. Back in two, okay?" She says and I thank her, turning to my bag as she walks out again. I dig through to find my Corpse Husband hoodie which I throw onto the bed for when Sam arrives before turning back to pull out my cigarettes and dog poop bags. I take Sum's vest, some treats and our harness out of her bag and she instantly rushes over to me with a wagging tail.
"Good girl, paw up!" I say and guide her into the vest before making sure it's on comfortably. I clip the leash onto my belt and attach Summer's vest to the other end. I look over at my wheelchair and think for a moment. I'm not especially dizzy and I feel okay so I don't think I'll need it. I quickly rush around the room and make sure everything is packed up since Sam will be here any time within the next half an hour to 2 hours. All that's left out is my blanket, phone charger, earphones and some stuff on my bed which only takes me a few minutes to pack up. Summer sits beside me as I sort it all out before following me over to her area where I pick up her bed, throwing it over by our bags. Next, I grab her empty food bowl and half empty water bowl which I take into the bathroom. I wash out both her bowls in the sink before popping them down and walking back over to her area where I gather the few toys she has scattered on the floor. Everything gets put into her bag of stuff and once I'm finally sure everything is packed, I smile and crouch down to give Summer a kiss. I fuss her for a few minutes before deciding to go find Marie since I'm desperate for a cigarette now.
I make sure my phone, the dog treats and box of cigs are in my pockets before heading over the door with Sum right beside me. I look out and see Marie standing at the nursing station talking to someone. I begin to walk over, wondering who the person is as they aren't in nurses uniform. All I can see is the back of the tall person's hoodie.
"Marie! I'm ready," I call out and she looks up, smiling.
"Give me one second, Ev!" She says and I nod, turning around ready to go back to my room. The person in front of her suddenly speaks, causing me to turn back around in shock.
"Ev?" I stare straight at that familiar face as the voice I don't know if I love or hate right now fills my ears.
Fucking hell.
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Problem Kid
Teen Fiction[NEW CHAPTERS RANDOMLY RELEASED] ⚠️⚠️18+ due to mature themes⚠️⚠️ Everleigh has never had a normal life. After losing her father as a young teenager, she fell into the painful routine of self harm and eating disorders, repeatedly checking in and out...
