𝘀𝗻𝗮𝗽𝘀𝗵𝗼𝗼𝘁? seventeen

⁵⁶: accidental exposure?

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[private chat : chanosaurus, kwanbooty]

chanosaurus
so  you wanted to know why i'm listening to doomsday on repeat

kwanbooty
yes bc you're either as in love w lizzie mcalpine as i am or you're depressed and we can only support one of those options

chanosaurus
well

kwanbooty
i see
it's depression

chanosaurus
are u gna let me speak or ☺️

kwanbooty
am i wrong or ☺️

chanosaurus
anyways.
i'm just sad bc i'm never anybody's first choice
yknow when people just like... settle for you
i don't want to be settled for
i want somebody to look at me and know it's me
like they know that i'm it and nobody else will ever catch their eye like that again

kwanbooty
real
are we talking about... anybody in particular?

chanosaurus
go ahead... i know you probably already suspect who it is and suspect correctly

kwanbooty
hansol?

chanosaurus
well ok you had the upper hand of knowing he's my client
and it is to do with him but not just him it's...

kwanbooty
what happened hon?
you can always tell me

chanosaurus
i caught some feelings because of how lovely he is and also because it's hard not to when you're being intimate with somebody on a weekly basis and i assumed that since he could be so sweet and since he kept coming back that maybe he would have feelings for me too and so i asked him to be my boyfriend and he said "i like you but i also like somebody else so it's not fair on you, im sorry" and now im spiralling and wondering whether he imagined me as the other person every time we did it or if he would settle for me if that other person wasn't interested and i refuse to be settled for and so now im feeling all upset and confused and i don't even want to be mad at him because it's HANSOL

kwanbooty
oh?
so hansol likes somebody... 

chanosaurus
and the funny thing is i'm such a hypocrite saying that shit about him settling for me because i settled for him after accepting my biggest crush would never even look at me like that

kwanbooty
THERE IS MORE THWN ONE?

chanosaurus
oh my god did i catch you off guard
i shall elebrate my victory through my debilitating depression 🥳

kwanboory
no because im well aware of one of your crushes that i shall not name because you will get violent due to your refusal to accept you have a crush on him
but i did not realize you would have more than one
now that i think about it... you only really interact with like 3 people in our chat?

chanosaurus
oh well i cant tell you just yet but its just...
we've barely ever spoken and yet he's so alluring
i like hansol a lot but when HE...

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have to sleep now it's 1:30 and i'm meant to be driving in a few hours LMAO but im def gna have to spam like a good... 10 or more chapters later if i can fit them all in aksjdk i need to get on top of this deadline bro (i dont have to but i do ok)

gn 😍