The MakeUp Artist Internship

Like Me, But Famous

We left at seven our time.  The plane touched down at noon, well three pm our time.   We had a nice flight.   Mom was really excited to see Johnny.   She told me, "I barely slept last night."   I hug her.  "I wish I did.  I want to cut Rob's dick off."   She looked at me with tears in her eyes.  "You love Johnny, don't you?"   She started to cry.  "Yes.  I do," she said.     Damn that Blanche Everson.   Damn her!!!

"Jade, do you remember any of that time?"
"I remember a red room where you held me and I was crying."
"You were so sick.   A double ear infection, a cold hotel room as we were kicked out of our house.   We were waiting on Grandma's.   Had that not happened, I think we would have lived there indefinitely.  That was a dark time of my life."
"What was the best time of your life?"
"When I met Johnny.   When I had you and Hannah.  My divorce.   Meeting Johnny again."
"You never thought spitting in a tube would cause this.  Did you know he was scared to call me. 
"So, did Sadie wish you well."
"Scott did more."
"Dump her.  Don't feel sorry for her, don't do anything for her.   That was why I spent fifteen years of my  of life miserable."

When the plane touches down, we get our luggage, and the SUV is waiting for us.   Sean helps us with our luggage and Mom sits next to Johnny, which is a make out session of sorts.    He is all over her and she him.   In the back is my "sister".  She and I are doing lunch and going shopping.  

"Embarrassing, isn't it?"  I asked Lily Rose.
"Yeah, but they are happy."
"Yeah.   I am Jade by the way."
"Jade.  I like that name."  
"It's for JD. I learned that last night." I am Jade Christine."

I look up at my mom and Johnny who were still all over each other.   His hands were in her blouse and in her pants. She had her hand on his crotch. Pretty soon mom starts to breathe a little heavier and Lily Rose and I look at each other. I see us being partners in crime,

"I think we'll go straight to lunch,"  lily says
"Yeah."
"At least I know she won't get pregnant.  Mom had fibroids and during the treatment had her tubes tied. She lied and got it done. My dad was that much of an asshole."
"Ah."
"My adoptive dad doesn't deserve children."

I was six and little Hannah was one.  I played with her all day while mom slept and dad went to work.   Dad was never there for her. He took her home after the procedure and she laid in the couch and I took care of Hannah. Hannah and I had this bond. I took care of her. Lily and I sat awkwardly as my mom and our dad get each other off.

When we get to the place where we will be staying, I go in and put my things away and spend the afternoon with Lily Rose. She's fun. I didn't't buy much as I am a size six and that was big at most stores. Plus, money was an issue, I didn't have that kind of money, but lunch was fun. I think if Lily was local, I would be close with her. I told him, "my mom was always cool with your mom, but boy she took it hard when he and Kate hooked up." She smiled. "Mom was happy as she could be for her life for a time and glad your dad has two kids." She was nice and understanding. My friend Haley found her dad and things didn't work out as well. However, she never really had a dad and all she wanted was a family, and I guess things didn't go as well. Also, Haley was a party girl. She was heavily into drugs, not just a joint here and a joint there.... The last time I was here, I had a spliffy with Johnny. She asked me what I was going to do tonight. I told her probably sleep. She had a date with her girlfriend and we went on to talk about our girls. "I am kind of on the outs with mine,". I told her. "I am so attracted to my best friend. He's a firefighter and I am this sort of partier." We took a selfie and sent it to Sadie, but it was a busy day counseling. She never acknowledged the picture. I was hurt.

When I got home, I walked in the house. It was quiet, I went up to the room I was saying in and passed by theirs there they were, going at it. I stood there for a second. Johnny made love to my mom. He didn't just fuck her. He was in her, kissing her, feeling her breasts as he moved in and out of her. Mom's cheeks were flushed as she kissed him. Rob and Johnny were the same size and I sometimes walked in on them. My mom was a bigger woman and she was always covered herself up or sometimes had her head facing the other way as he had his way with her. I would read about her "zone outs" where she wished she were some place else or with someone else. They were so into themselves that they didn't notice me. I just went to my room, got out 1996 and I was thankful she was out of wheee she was.... Rob was never there for her.

"Today my car died when I picked up Jade. I took her up for story time and my car died, in the cold, steely rain, my car died. I think God is punishing me anyway. While I was at story time, all the mothers were pregnant and there I was with my empty uterus and in my Dillard's uniform. They were all laughing, but here I was almost crying. Rob and I were fighting and I was probably more than likely going to go home a ruined woman. A woman with bad credit, who was a whore, and had an abortion. NO ONE would want me. When I came out my car died. Rob was home and I called and called and called and called. However, he never answered and I was broke, Jade was hungry and crying, and I was stranded, finally, the security guard who looked like Donald Trump got my car to start. "Gonna need a new alternator." I just want to bawl. I had to pay for the abortion as the money fell though, I was so pissed and upset, and we were now looking at houses. "You can borrow my car," Rob told me. "I can walk to work. On our off days, we need to look for places. Our credit is bad, so we may not be in a desirable area." I knew that. I was resigned to the fact we would be living on a small national home or an old house, I didn't like it, but that was what was on the platter."

"When did you get here?" Mom asked.
"A few minutes ago."
"Um..."
"It's cool."
"Did you and Lily Rose have a good time?"
"Actually yes. I can see she and I hanging out. Hannah is special to me, too."
"I told her."
"How did she take it."
"Actually okay."
"I just don't want her feeling hurt as we have this bond."
"We always did. We struggled a lot." She hugged me. She smells like sex,

Johnny walks in. I saw "Private Resort" and his ass now has aged, it's older, not as firm. I laugh to myself. They are going to dinner tonight. They said that I could order a pizza and I might. I kind of want to settle in and get to know my mom a little better. All I do know is that she really deserved Johnny. I felt so bad for her mom, holding a hungry, crying me at the library an the man who claimed to love her the most would not answer his phone as she tried so hard not to cry.... These diaries are helping me know her on a much, much much deeper level than ever before.