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Two Pretty Girls At The Club Car - A Walk Down Memory Lane

      I met my mom on Friday at The Club Car.  She looked RADIANT.   She didn't have one of her wigs on and it was that short cropped cut that made her look so cute.  She had a shimmery jacket over a black top and pants.  I feel underdressed in my jeans, black top, cardigan, and boots.   Mother was always pretty.   She always reminded me of a heavy Charlize.   She was beautiful. Personally and the gut feeling I get is that she and Johnny just lost touch.

      "Mom, you look so pretty,". I told her.
"Thanks, babe.  You are gorgeous!  You really look like Johnny tonight."
"I look like a man?"
"Johnny is one of the most beautiful people I have met.  God smiled when they made him."
"You kind of fell apart when he ghosted you."
"I did."

     My heart went out to her.  She talked about having me and how she had to downplay my birth because Sarah was graduating.  My mom had to deflect me when she had gone through a rough pregnancy and delivery, which I had no epidural.  There she was at Sarah's graduation party with me and I was a beautiful baby and family and friends were just as proud of her as they were with Sarah.  My mother had to say, "Thank you, but this is Sarah's day, not mine.  Let's enjoy yher day."   Mom told me how she was so hurt when he was dating Kate and it was all over the magazines.   "I went home and cried and I wanted to die," she said as she looked at her hands, "but I had you."   She looked at her amaretto sour's and said, "You saved me."  I bite my lip.  She talked about the quest to find a man and how she met Rob.  She was having money problems and she served at O'Toole's.  "He was a manager and he was so cute!   The thing was, he wanted to be with me, as having a kid was off putting.  He wanted to be your dad because he got a tax break."

"I jumped in the river a bit too soon. It was a whirlwind romance, I ended up pregnant though, and that it I had the abortion and it crushed me. I killed a little you," she says. "However, he said it was for the best because we could barely afford you. We could afford another one if we didn't go to dinner every night at a high end place and then he would order top end liquor."
"I'm sorry, mom."
"We took you to Indy. He and you went to the mall and I went to the Women's Center. He thought it would be an hour. I was in there and it took forever. Interview after interview to see if I wanted the abortion z.  They told me I could keep it and it was my choice, but I knew what your dad would say. After the procedure, I walked out and you were in the car red faced and crying. You were soaked in sweat and pee and he was high. You had been there for two hours."
"I was little mom, it's okay."
"I took away your brother or sister."
"It's okay mom."

Mom talks about the first year with my adoptive dad, the crushing depression she had. I don't remember that. She worked a lot. I remember she got pregnant again and this time got married, but she wasn't happy. She cried and cried and cried and cried. I remember her wedding, I looked like a little Johnny in a dress with my hair piled on my head. It was the style then.  I had a dress with a gold top and crème bottom. I just remember her crying a lot. Then mom had Hannah. She was cute. I loved to sit and hold her. I loved evenings home with mom. Dad would say, "Don't touch my baby" and grandma would yank her out of my arms. "My baby," she would say. She would smack my hands. I hated her. Mom wasn't happy. My sister had a rough entry in the world. Mom fell for the the doctor and thought of him often, Then it was a fireman, a policeman, another one, a politician, and then she had an affair. She just wasn't happy and there was a man who talk to her, listened to her, and loved her. Dad found out and dad went ballistic and left, but he was so mean to mom. Shoving her, screaming at her and calling her a "whore". Mother just wasn't happy.

Then and there, I made the decision to move forward to have arrangements to meet Mr. Johnny Depp. Mother deserved it. Mother deserved an answer. I had a weird feeling something was going to happen.  

After dinner I went over to Sadie's. I had not talked to her since she told me I was fucking annoying. She was okay. She was horny, So all was forgiven. I had to lick her fat, stubbly pussy. It scratched my face and my cheeks were raw. "Baby, I have wanted this all day!" She gets off and then she she pulls her underwear up and said, "Let's go to O'Reilley's. I gotta show off my Lily Rose clone." I was pissed. I wanted a little attention, too, and I totally understood how my mom felt in her first marriage.

"How about you drive? Gotta save has for school."
"Sure."
"Hey, I hate to ask, but could you buy drinks tonight. I am a little light."
"Okay."
"Don't get so shitty."
"Hey, I wanted to get eaten out, too."
"Look, I will do you when we get back."

I really to tell her to to "fuck off" and go home. In that respect I was like mom. I let her walk all over me. However, in the dark of the club she kisses me, and I say, "do me right here in this corner." So I sit at the table jeans around my thighs as my girlfriend gets me to another level. "That was so hot. I love you so much,". I said. All was forgiven for the rest of the night, but something was festering and Sadie wasn't always true.

"I am going to meet Johnny," I tell her on the way home.
"Well if he will meet you. I wouldn't brag of my dad being a wife beater."

That comment went for the jugular. "Look, I have a busy week next week. Can't hook up til Thursday."
"Okay."

She was busy with her new girlfriends, but she loved the attention we got when we were out, She kisses me goodbye, grabs my breasts and says, "My Lily Rose lookalike." I was just a commodity to her. I feel like mom who was trapped in a marriage with a cheating man and didn't know what to do about it, I drove home in the blustery night. Lauren was there with Scott and they were doing it, I shoved my head in a pillow and cried myself to sleep.