The MakeUp Artist Internship

The Phone Is Ringing Off The Hook: Amy

     Sitting next to my girl, I looked at her,  I smiled and I said, "Thank you.  Thank you so so much."   She looks at me and says, "You could have at lest kept it down."   I was usually open with her, but I just could not.  The things we did bordered things you just don't tell your child.  I ached from my tailbone to my belly.    Hannah was ten pounds.  I sort of felt like that but pleasured. 

     "So, what did you talk about while you were out?"  Jade asked.
"Anything and everything.   He adores us.   I wished I would have been assertive with him and kept calling, maybe even showed up, but I was so broke,".
"Mom, he felt so bad.  Then an agent felt he should date other women. 
"What matters is that he has you now."

     My kid was right.

"Then we came home and broke a four hundred dollar vase."
"About that. Could you have been quieter."
"There's just a chemistry there. Always has been, Did you know he used to look at me in when we were getting people ready and thunk about me."
"It's fate. Did you feel anything with Rob?"
"Dread. Fucking dread."
"What about Russell."
"Same. I try not to think of him, or Shane."

We get home and I was exhausted. Scott was a sport and took us home. He brought my luggage inside and he gave me a hug. I smile and thank him and I say, "Lauren is really lucky." He pauses and says, "yeah." He wasin love with my daughter. I hoped both of them would come to their senses. I saw them out the back door, call
Ed Hannah, and took her to dinner as a thank you for watching Rosie. I texted Johnny to let him know I was okay and we got home safely. At dinner we talked about Johnny and I told her I was very glad she was born and I had no regrets marrying her dad. I did, but had I not, I would be minus a beautiful daughter. When I got home, I told Johnny, "I am so fucking sore." I went to sleep at eight.

The alarm rang and I got up. I had about 20 Texts. "He falls for an esthetician at Dillard's.... They briefly dated in 1993...." I didn't know now it was leaked, Most of the comments weee positive. I loved the one that said, "Maybe he does need a lesser known woman to date. She is an every day woman and maybe he needs that." A few of them called me "ugly", but Johnny made me feel less than ugly. Because we share a child, Rob texted me. He was drunk. "You gonna cheat on him, whore? I always knew it was him. I always played second fiddle to that douche? Maybe I'm wouldn't have fucked that female prisoner if you haven't been such a prude." I ignored him. I learned to ignore, it was better. If he hadn't ignored me, been verbally abusive to me, and so on and so forth, I would have been more attentive, we still would have been married, and I would have NOT pursued this. Also, in an ideal world, he would Have loved Jade. He wouldn't have said things like, "You aren't blood.... You are just donated sperm." He told a six year old this.

I exercise and my thighs are killing me. I do my head work, eat breakfast and go to work. When I get there, cars are already there, Peggy called me, "You may have to take the freight elevator, the phone is ringing off of the hook. Sounds like you had a good weekend. Looks like it too." A girl looks at me. I walked up the steps and mall security was there to greet me. I walk into Dillard's. It's already open as they open at 8. Girls look at me. They don't pursue, but they look at me.

"So, how was your weekend?" Peggy asked.
"It was wonderful. I can hardly sit down."
"Really?"
"Yeah."
"So, you're his girl?"
"Yes. He was going to give that to me in 1993."
"I am 65. I have known you for ages, and this is wonderful news. I remember trying to talk to you to calling a women's shelter a few times." I bit my lip. I went in 2002 for a week.
"Yes. You got blocked off October 17-22."
"Of course."
"Thank you."
"Darling, you deserve this."

    I still felt like I was dreaming and felt I had to pinch myself.   My first client of the day was Marliese.,  I liked her.  She told me that she saw me on tv "with my new man".  I smiled.   "You two are very cute."   I told her "Thank you."   He next client comes in, a walk in.  She kept asking me about Johnny and said, "This is so cool.  It's like I am touching Johnny."  I felt a bit weirder out.  At noon I texted Johnny.   "People want to have appointments with me because I am with you.   One even said she liked that I touched you with these hands.  Johnny this is too weird."   "You will have to get used to it, Love." 

     By the day's end, I am booked solid.  I used to love leaving through the store.   However, I leave through the janitor's elevator.   I leave through the dock of the mall.   This is my new normal.   Johnny reassured me I won't be doing this forever.   I hoped not.   I take a weird way home.   Sean advised it.  I get home and I sit in the tub.  I am so sore and my body hurts and it feels so good.  I wished Johnny was here with me.  

     I could not wait until mid October.