The MakeUp Artist Internship

A Hell Of A Show

Johnny played "Let It Be Me". and he kept looking back at mom. After he finished that set, he even came back and kissed her. Hard. he touched my shoulder and said, "Thank you". Mom even thanked me with a bug hug. I guess the media caught them kissing and mom's popularity would grow exponentially by morning. Johnny is sincere around her. When sets are finished, he always comes over to her to see her. Mom says, "He looks so cute with his hair, shirts, and clothes." I was tired and got on the bus with the rest of the band while mom and Johnny met fans. I read about the days Rob was in jail and how bad it was. "I am so sick and I can't take off. The girls are sick and I am so thankful,for Veryle who takes them when they are sick. We may be able to do a plea deal which means he would be home on house arrest by November. I am still mad at myself for not divorcing him, but he'a good looking and the pool of men for my age just isn't swimming the attractive participants." I read a little more and soon mom and Johnny were on the bus. He warmed her up in the seat behind me and I looked back and they were kissing as hard as they were backstage. I am happy for her. He is her "one". However, when the lights go low, they have a quickie in the seat. Mom is on top of him and you can hear them moving against each other. Then he stops and they kiss. I text Sadie. "So, how are things?" She asked. I said, "well they just had sex in the bus." "You mom is so cool AND there is a picture of them kissing. Your mom is like a rockstar. Well, your dad, too." She seemed concerned today. Some days she could give two shits about me. When the lights come on and my mom gets up, she pulls up her jeans. This isn't the first session of the night. Johnny pulls up his jeans and takes her hand, I guess it is out on the internet already. "Johnny Depp's New Girl".... "She isn't half is age and he is half her size!" That one is going to hurt.

We get to the pancake house and eat. Mom's hands are between Johnny's legs and he is stroking her back. We get back to the the hotel. There were a few fans and Johnny talked to them. Mom was well received but tomorrow would be another story. A jealous fan would trip my mom. I get into my room, brush my teeth, and the hotel door opens with a slam. Johnny is kissing my mom like he had never seen her for years. He is talking off this clothes and her clothes and they are crawling across the floor, having sex as they make it across the room. It was a loud night, and. read and read. I read from November 2007 when dad got to come home to 2007 where he gets a Jin at a cook in a restaurant to it's closing, to dealing with him at home again. It was a horrible time. "He came home. We got him flowers and I had to put out. I just laid there wishing it were over...." Dad also had to take classes on anger, morality, and family living. We had to drive him, so it was time with our mom. She always took us to fun things. I do remember that. I remembered that time as sacred. However, dad lied to the therapist and he was an angry asshole at home. I remember one Fourth of July, he terrorized us the whole day, especially mom. The neighbors were having a party and were worried. They made my mom come outside to see if she was getting the crap kicked out of her. He screamed at her, "For being a fucking beautician, your girls are dirty. You are selfish and rude, thinking only of yourself. Jade is fucking thirteen and dresses like a dirty girl. She looks so unkempt. Then Hannah has greasy hair that has no style. ". "This has been the worst Fourth of July ever. Rob has been on one, mad that he isn't invited to places that we were once welcome. I hate it. I am embarrassed that he has no friends. I am tired of working all day and he eats all of the food, it this job he does have promise. However, I am tired of his anger. I am tired of living here. I am tired of him. I wish I would have put my foot down and stayed in California." I wondered if he would have married mom. Would he have taken us in? I had a feeling he would. I hear them in the bed next to me. Mom so deserves this.

I read through the night, when we went to the park and Rob wants to buy a house in the neighborhood and mom does not. I remember him screaming at mom. I remember a lesbian woman asking if she was okay, She wasn't. Then the place where he was a server folded, and he was deeply depressed. That was when he told her he was "dying". "Last night he took me out in the garden and said he was dying. I hate to say it, but I wish he would. I am so damn disappointed in him. I got talked out of divorcing him, and if he died, I would be free." I cried a few tears on that one, as mom felt trapped.   She felt her like was over.   Then I heard the grunts and groans, and mom's "Oh Johnny" here and there, and I said to her , "Mom, you deserve ALL of this. Mom, you survived a lot and now you are more than okay. I love you." She didn't hear, but I could hear Johnny making love to her like a college girl at a frat party. 

Finally, I fell asleep.