Kingdom Of Cards chpt 4 N.S. story Bad Omens

we're still alive

*Romantic/steamy *
Eleanor's POV
After a half hour of sitting, I decided to lean against the gate and sing along to the song "Daddy issues ". This show was absolutely beautiful, the crowd, the stage, the music, and being here with the people who mean everything to me.

As that song came to an end, 'sweater weather' started. "All I am is a man" I sang with all the guys beside me smiling as we all were swaying. Folio was such a joker, his little smiles were so sweet.

I held the gate tightly as the chorus was coming up, that's when I felt Noah's hands on my hips. He pulls my *ss against him as we slowly sway.
Noah has his chest pressed against my back so his lips are right beside my ear. His warm breath tickling my skin as his beautiful voice starts singing.

"Put my finger around your tongue cause you love the taste." He sang so lowly in my ear like he did for their song bad decisions. "Cause it's too cold for you here, so now let me hold both your hands in the holes of my sweater." I got so lost in his voice as he sets his chin on my shoulder while we slowly swayed to the song.
He was making this so romantic.

I gently grab ahold of his long fingers as they interlocked with mine. Tattoos covering his soft skin in beautifully drawn pictures. Noah's cologne smelled amazing, he always wore Johnny Depp's choice which smells incredible.

Once the song comes to an end, I turn around to face Noah. He looked so beautiful with the purple lights highlighting the right parts of his handsome face. We stare at each other full of... I don't want to say love cause we lost that a long time ago.
Lust or attraction? Maybe a little bit of both. I watch his moves intensely as he slowly leans in towards my ear.
"Don't break my heart again." And just like that, he kisses me.

Our lips together like a perfect rhythm and the taste of paradise.
I cup his face as he presses my lower back into his hips. His tongue licks my lips with such hunger and lust as my back arches. "You wanna f*ck? " I couldn't help the heat between my legs as his warm breath flows down my neck. "Yes" I said breathless as we pull away. "FOLIO? " he points to Sebastian as Folio waves him down.
"NIGHT GUYS, THANKS WILL" I waved with Noah as the man named Will smiles and waves back...

Noah and I slowly closed the hotel door while in an intense makeout session. We were pressed against the wall full of hunger. We have so much lost time to repay. I slowly slid Noah's shirt up to see his tattooed stomach.
He was already unbuckling his belt as I eventually pull his shirt off. "What are you thinking about? " he whispered as I run my fingers down his neck.
"This is so sad" I whispered as he kisses my lips softly. "I know." We lean our foreheads against each other while catching our breath. "Tell me, baby girl." His words always make me feel the best kind of numb. "I wanna remember what we had. Even if it breaks my heart, I need to remember." He nods and points to the bed. "Remove those shorts Eleanor" he was calm so it wasn't a dominant thing tonight, maybe just shocked.

I removed my bra and shorts while lying down on my elbows as Noah comes walking down in his boxers.
"Your body is still gorgeous. "
"Thank you" I whispered as he slowly climbs over me. "Little girl, this is hard." He looked so sad as his beautiful eyes stare down at mine.
"Noah, can I close my eyes?" He nods as I set my hands on his shoulders.
"I'm gonna remove these ok?" I nod as I feel his hands sliding my lacy bottoms off. "You're so beautiful " the tone was so sad, it actually kinda hurt.

As I was laying there on my back, Noah slowly spreads my legs. I felt his tip right against me as he slowly starts to slide inside me. "Oh Noah! F*ck" I whimper at the pain. "Eleanor, look at me. Talk to me baby girl. Am I hurting you?" I take a deep breath in as Noah waits for me to reply. "It's been so long, Noah... I just need a minute." He gently cups my cheek as my eyes stared up at him. "We were so much stronger back then." I nod and cup his face, watching his curls fall over his forehead. "If you're willing to work with me... maybe we can build this back up, it's gonna be really hard though. " he was right, if we even have a chance together again, it's gonna take so long to build all of that back up. "I know, do you want this?" He looked so sad at my question. "I don't know. I'm scared you're gonna leave me again." He was being very honest, I respect him so much for that. "Do you?" I have no answer for that, so I don't reply.
"Do you want this? " he says looking at my body below his tall frame. "I missed you so much, so yes.... I want you." He just nods before positioning himself. "I'm gonna go slow so you're comfortable, okay?" I nod as he slowly starts to slide in.

At first I was ok, but once he was halfway in, it really started to hurt.
"Noah, I'm sorry " I cried as he stops.
"It's ok, just talk to me. I don't want to hurt you.... do you want me to stop?"
"No, just go ahead... I don't deserve your kindness." I whispered as I dig my nails into his back. "Well you shouldn't be in pain either." He was too f*cking nice to me, why?

"Ok, Noah you can go" he nods and slowly starts again. "Ugh, oh Noah I can't!" I cried out as he kisses me. "Hey, look at me, just look at me. Hold my hand, close your eyes, and just breathe. It's ok, Eleanor." I grabbed his left hand tightly and closed my eyes while trying to breathe. "You're gonna be alright, baby girl." I nod as he kisses my nose. "Take a deep breath" as I inhale, he slams all the way into me.
"F*CK!" I screamed as he was fully in me. "I'm sorry, it's over now ok?"
"Noah, it's so painful." He gently rubs his thumb under my soaking eyes to move the tears. "I know, Ellie I'm sorry." That was the first time he called me "Ellie" in years, it was so sweet. "You called me, Ellie again."
"Your earning my respect too. "
He was a very patient man, I would never take me back if someone did what I did to him to me.

"I'm gonna start ok? I need you to talk to me if you're uncomfortable."
"Yes, Noah" he nods then slowly starts to move his hips against mine. At first it was painful, but once he picked up the pace, it felt incredible. He hit all the right spots and had me moaning in seconds. His tattooed chest had my eyes glued as his body was presses against mine.

Tonight was full of care and feeling comfortable with each other again, not rough, not dominant, or harsh, just sweet and pretty romantic......