Kingdom Of Cards chpt 4 N.S. story Bad Omens

Trust

ANOTHER FILLER

Noah's POV
"It's really ok, dude. The whole back on tour thing is a bit difficult, ya know? " I said as I sat with folio in the ER. He was ok, but needed to be on oxygen and get some liquids running through his system. "Are you mentally doing alright? " he asks as we were having an important conversation.
"I just the Ellie and the boys. I can't numb it like I used to... Or something will happen and I don't want to relapse. " I almost whispered the last part as he nods. "You're a father and soon to be husband. I'm really happy to hear you say that, Noah." I nodded, knowing he's right. I just don't know how much longer I can go without Ellie, without the kids, and without my medication. Phil really f*cked up on that one......

Eleanor's POV
"Amanda, he hasn't said anything!" I said in worry while setting my phone down. "Did you try calling Nick? "
I shake my head and get my phone again. Amanda had a great idea.
"And if he doesn't answer, call Folio and same for Jolly." I nodded while putting the phone up to my ear as it rang a few times.

"Hi Eleanor, are you doing ok?" He asked as I hear Jolly and Matt in the background. "Oh thank God! Nick is Noah ok? I haven't been able to reach him." I said in worry as Amanda brings Sebastian some pancakes.
"Yeah yeah, he's fine Ellie. He probably didn't call you because we're all in the hospital. Folio was in really bad shape early so we had to take him to the hospital and cancel the show.
His drink was drugged and God knows what else, but he's alright.
Noah was having a private situation with him so the guys and I are just waking around." I had no idea something happened to Folio. I now feel guilty for being so selfish.

"Nick, thank you for explaining everything. I'm so sorry for Folio, too.
When they have time please have them call me ok?" I asked as Amanda looks at me shocked. "You bet Ellie, I will. Talk to ya soon ok?" I nod before saying goodbye and hanging up....

Noah's POV
The guys and I arrived back at the hotel. We will be staying tomorrow too since we had to cancel the show tonight.

The boys and I head upstairs to our own rooms. Once I shut the door, I walk towards the bathroom. I don't feel bad mentally, but if I wait much longer, I'll get to that dark stage and probably wanna cut myself again. It's almost dangerous for me to be alone.
When I'm only with myself, I can be my best friend or I can be my own worst enemy. It really depends on who's wearing the mask.

I stare at myself in the mirror and see the usual me. I'm kinda lost, but I'm alright. That was a good sign for now at least. I reach over to turn the sink on when my phone goes off. It was a message. I ignore it and go to clean my face....